I really try.
I try with self love, treating myself, surrounding myself with people.
It doesn't work.
I'm still depressed.
I'm still angry.
I'm still anxious.
I'm still just as destroyed inside as I was before.
I doubt I'll ever be completely happy.
I dream of one day having a family
But there's so much in the way of that
I don't know if I'm strong enough to get past it all.
I desperately want to.
I want to feel love.
I want to be in love.
I want to be happy.
I want to live a life where I'm not scared of what I don't know.
