Russian Mafia Leader

Chapter 4: The past

Malibu's POV:

It's been three days and I absolutely love it here. It's different but in a good way. Xavier's mom is lovely, very sweet. His dad is never here but only at night, and he smells like alcohol and cigarettes. Not a good sign but i let it slide.
Xavier said he'll tell me soon, even though I can see it in his eyes that he doesn't want to speak about his father.
Me and Xavier are currently attempting to make peanut butter cookies, but it's not going as planned.
"Xavier! My shirt!" I screamed teasingly while looking down at my now dirty shirt. Well, Xavier's shirt. He just threw some cookie batter at me.
He threw his head back and laughed,
"My shirt you mean?" I rolled my eyes and began making the cookies.
After I was done I plopped them in the oven and let them cook. I turned around and looked at Xavier who was already looking at me. Lately he's been off, like he wants to tell me something but he can't bring himself to.
"What's on your mind Xavier? And don't say anything, it won't work this time" I said while crossing my arms over my chest.
He sighed and looked down.
"You're probably gonna hate me and run after I tell you. You'll be scared of me and think I'm a monster"
I shook my head,
"Just tell me". He looked at me and nodded his head slightly.
"I'm...the leader of the Russian mafia"
My eyes grew wide and I stepped back slightly which didn't go unnoticed by Xavier.
He frowned,
"I'm not gonna hurt you. I promise. I'll never hurt you nor will I let someone else hurt you"
I sighed and walked up to him.
"H-how many people have you killed?" I asked slowly. He looked at me but didn't answer.
"How many people have you killed Xavier?!" I said louder making him flinch.
"D-don't shout at me" he stumbled. He's scared to answer me.
"To many to count Malibu, to many. But they weren't innocent. They were bad people. I don't kill the innocent ones" he said while looking down. Tears sprung to my eyes and I stepped back.
He looked up and reached out for me.
I didn't see Xavier, I saw Mason. The guy who raped me, abused me, tortured me. The guy i thought i loved but he turned out to be a monster.
I flinched at Xavier's hand. He drew his hand back and looked at me with sadness and anger.
"I won't hurt you" he said, reaching his hand out again. I shook my head and stepped back but got stopped by the counter top. He stepped closer to me. My mind telling me to run but my body and heart told me not to move.
I stood still as he cupped my face in his hands. I flinched softly but continued to look him in his eyes.
"I would never hurt you, babygirl. Please trust me" he said. Tears were beginning to fill his eyes. It's not him I'm scared of.
"It's not you I'm scared of" I whispered.
"Then what are you scared of?" He asked softly.
"Your actions. My past. I have PTSD. Im forever broken and scarred"
"What happened to you princess? What makes you flinch?" He asked. I could tell he's mad but he's trying to stay calm so he won't scare me.
"You'll hate me after this" I said while looking down at my shoes.
"Id never hate you. Never" he said while rubbing my cheeks with his thumbs.
"When I was 16 turning 17 I met this guy. His name was Mason. I thought he was super sweet and kind and gentle but i was wrong. He asked me to be his girlfriend, after about 3 months of talking and i, of course, said yes. We were about two months into the relationship when he started to get abusive. He would punch me, kick me, slap me, everything you could think of. He even r-raped me" I choked the last part out but continued,
"That lasted for about 5 months. Until one day he was beating me and the cops barged in. I don't know who called the cops but whoever it was god bless them. My mom at the time worked almost 24/7, so she wasn't there at that time. They put him in handcuffs and shoved him in the cop car. I wanted to die at that point because I knew after what he did, I'd never find a guy who I could trust. I'd never find a guy that would not be abusive. I wanted to save my virginity for the right guy but he took that a-away." I said sobbing. Xavier pulled me ink his chest and whispered soothing things.
"I thought I was disgusting. I felt dirty thanks to him. People fount out that I was raped and began to call me names. I would cut my wrists and hope I would cut deep enough so I could die. And on top of that I fount out I was a month pregnant with his child but I had a miscarriage. I cried and cried until I puked. I wanted to end my life but thankfully my mom got me out of that. I began to get therapy for about 3 1/2 years and now here I am. I graduated therapy about 2-3 months ago. Mason is still in jail and I hope he dies in there. So there ya go, there's the real Malibu" I said while wiping my eyes. Xavier pulled my hands away and wiped the tears away for me.
"I'm so sorry Malibu. You didn't deserve that. I wish I could get my hands on that son of a bitch. I'd kill him for hurting my baby girl. Malibu, you're so strong. Your my little survivor. And I hope you stay mine forever. Just know I'd never hurt you. Never in my life will I lay one finger on you in a hurtful way. I mean, I might lay a finger on you in another different way, if you know what I mean" he said adding a wink at the end. I giggled at his dirty comment.
I looked up at him and smiled. He returned the smile,
"I absolutely love everything about you. The scars, the flaws, the stretch marks, everything. I love every single thing" he said while rubbing the sides of my thighs.
I smiled,
"I love everything about you to. I know you won't hurt me. I care for your safety being in this Mafia shit. Because if I lost you then I'd be nothing. Over the past month you've made me feel happiness. You've made me feel safe. You've made me feel...love" I said the ending softly but he could still hear. He smiled,
"You deserve to be treated like a queen Malibu. Let me do that. Let me love you." I smiled and nodded my head.
"Okay"
He smiled and smashed his lips against mine. The shocks are back!
After a few minutes I pulled back.
"You don't think I'm gross? You know, stretch marks and scars?" I asked softly. He smiled and shook his head.
"I love them. The stretch marks show progress in a way. Plus I love a girl with a big ass and boobs and hips" he said adding a wink. I giggled but let him continue.
"And the scars mean you survived. You were strong and made it through a stuff time in your life. I absolutely love them, like I love you" I was shocked. He loved me?
I smiled and rested my forehead against his,
"I love you to" I really do. This is true love. What i had with Mason was nothing.
He smiled and pulled me into a hug.
"I'll always be with you Malibu. Ill never leave you. Never in a million years. Your mine forever" I smiled,
"Yours" after that you know what happened;)
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We were both breathing heavily but we were smiling.
"I love you" he said while rubbing my bare hips.
"I love you to" I said while running my hand through his soft hair.
"I'll always love you" he said before pulling me against him.
"And i will always love you, my sexy Mafia leader" he chuckled but kissed my head.
And that ladies and gentlemen, is how we fell asleep.

A/N: chapter 4 is finished I hope you guys enjoyed:)
Love you my beautiful Daisies😘