journal of immortality

august 29

it has been forever since i have been reminded to write in this journal. So, Anna, my assistant, has, as you can guess, reminded me to write in you, so i will fill you in. Now, surprisingly, Tobias and Nina have been rather calm, Nina hasn't eaten many things, and Tobias is rather calm, he's quiet, and i think he might be dating that Sasha girl who visits, but my main concern is Christien.

if you remember, Christien is very prone to flares of violence, blacking out and beating people, no matter their gender or age. I haven't been able to find a medication strong enough to truly calm him, they either mess with his hormones, or they piss him off further, so for the moment, he is not on any medication. 

His anger has not soothed, he might actually be getting worse if i am to look at his attitude now compared to his child hood. What scares me most is he and that girl he used to bully are dating. Don't ask me how, but it seems they are rather intimate, in a weird, sadistic way. I have seen Christien pulling her hair, smacking her, and even kicking Samantha at times, but she seems to love that, giggling and grinning when he does that type of thing to her. 

I will note, he has also never verbally abused her, despite physically beating her. I find that rather confusing, but Samantha assures me when i patch her up that it is consensual, and she is actually incapable of being aroused or anything without massive amounts of pain, which Christien delivers. I cannot judge someone for what they need to find fulfillment, but she also told me of Christien's fondness for blood. His SEXUAL fondness. While he can have whatever fetish pleases him, that one worries me.

To make things worse, at dinner a couple nights ago, i was forced to sit with the family, seeing how their table was the only empty one and the staff table was over crowded. Another child was there, a girl that had just arrived and she was kinda cocky, having been spoiled to the point that someone called it in as abuse, so she was here, and i am sad to admit that even i was annoyed by her presence. With that said, i didn't want to hurt her. Christien, on the other hand, seemed to deem her worthy of his unbridled wrath.

We were eating dinner when Maya, the newer girl, demanded that the red headed boy hand her his food. Now, the 'boy' she had been referring to was actually Samantha, who has a very boyish appearance and is rather sensitive about her looks, so it was no shock that she burst into tears. I watched Maya roll her eyes and scoff, and that is when Christien struck.

I tried to grab him, but he punched me in the face, now three of my teeth are gone, and his family did nothing to stop him from grabbing a knife and stabbing Maya's eye out, he then continued to stab her in vital places and slam her head against the table. After a moment, some burly security guards Mrs. Moore had hired to protect the orphanage at night from a cannibal that was suspected to be running around, grabbed him and dragged him off. When he was pulled away his eyes scared me so badly. Christien's left eye, i believe, was pure black, like Mark's eyes are when he gets too angry, i have inferred that this eye color is supposed to mean they are blind, and the right one was black save for the red iris.

This change in eye color disturbs me. Mark's eyes change because of what he is, which i believe is the demented dark angel, but Christien's eyes resemble that of the demented angel of light, who i have seen in some books while trying to piece together what this family is. Now, i am not scared of Mark, the demented dark angel is rather docile, only getting overly violent when his lover is threatened, but the other demented angel is known as the demi-god of sadism for his uncontrollable rage and lack of concern for anyone's life, save for children.

I know this sounds like a claim with no evidence, but eye colors and immortals show a lot. Blindness in one eye is kinda common, but having black sclera and a red iris is evidence of violent tendencies. Due to my research, this used to be common, to show humans that the immortals could be violent, but it has gone away due to the immortals becoming more docile and losing their violence, so while some immortals are still violent to an extent, there are few that reach the level to where their eye color warns of it.

 I don't know how to feel about this, i would usually try to medicate someone with the intermittent explosive disorder, but this eye color fact makes me believe that i might not be able to find something strong enough to solve the problem.