Stronghold

Carry On

                           -Wessley-

       I hate how I'm the one putting Renesmee through this pain. I shouldn't have ever let it go this far. I shouldn't have let her fall for me. Why did I have to fall for her? People make fun of her because of me...
       She could be in a way better relationship with another guy. And I'm keeping her from that... I'm keeping her away from a way healthier relationship.
      I'm worried that one day she will wake up and hear that I'm DEAD. That I left her... That I'm no longer there for her.
      I love her. I love her with all of my heart. But if I really truly loved her.. would I be putting her through this? Would I keep up this relationship that we are in? Would I put her through this pain? Would I let this continue?...
       I just want her to have everything that she wants. I want her to be happy. I want her to live a good life. I want her to have that life that I can't. That life without me. Because I can't put her through this much longer... I love her. And with this love I want to give her a chance to be in a healthier relationship.. I need her to carry on without me.