He Is The Unwanted One

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Looking at Reiner I see questions swirling in those eyes so green that they reminded me of a rainforest, I might as well tell him about the Isadora from two years ago. Gathering the courage I finally speak, "Reiner the person I am today isn't the same one two years ago. You remembered the scars I have on me."

Stopping to take a deep breath before continuing on, since I've started talking I had to stop looking into those eyes because it's hard to explain to him that I hated the way I looked or that I was mentally abused by my father, sometimes my brother. Hearing Reiner growl I looked up at him with sad eyes, "I can't exactly remember when the mental abused started with my dad, mom said it was the alcohol and the angry he felt from being screwed over by his old job."

Reiner is now kneeling in front of me with this expression on his face that could murder the next person he glanced at. I need to finish saying this though, "Like it wasn't never physical or anything but it lead me to self harm."

Now I got tears and snot running down my face, "He just made me feel worthless and like no one will never love me because I was fat and ugly. Always saying things like who wants a fat bitch like you. No one wants you so you might as well be prepared to be alone forever. Lord knows I was so emotional damaged that I cut my stomach since I was so fat."

Taking another deep breath before starting again, "I don't think anyone knew I was hurting myself physically. Honestly my mom didn't know he was being abusive to me, she just thought my dad was just changing but then my brother started to do the same thing. Mom worked so much that I rarely saw her but one day she came home and heard all the things being said to me by the both of them."

"After that day we moved out but stayed in the same town for another year or so until now, it was hard for mom to find a new job. Then this happened, we packed up and decided on a fresh start."

My voice was shaking as I continued on, "It wasn't easy living there because my dad constantly drunk and everyone in town knew about how mentally I was hurt. I used to keep to myself and never talked. Then one day something changed inside me, I can't explain to you what it was but I realized this is me."

I covered my face with my hands because old habits die hard, now I'm reverting back to my old self just by talking about the past. Feeling hands removing mine from my face, my eyes meet Reiner's and his eyes tell me he is sad. Standing up he pulls me into a hug, whispering that he'll never let anything else happen to me. After crying for awhile longer I took a hot shower, standing under the ray of water I cried some more, feeling my stomach I touch where I caused self harm to myself. There is about twenty or so small lines all over my stomach. Sighing I climbed out and got ready for bed.

Mrs. Flanagan did come by the room awhile ago to check up on us, I was so upset still that I didn't talk so my dragon spoke to his mother and unfortunately you can hear the hatred in his voice. I didn't hear her side of the story I just laid in bed staring up at the ceiling.

Walking out the bathroom after putting my bonnet I noticed Reiner laying on my bed waiting on me. Smiling at him, I climbed up there to cuddle with him. We watch some more episodes of Dragon Ball Super before falling asleep.

Well y'all I didn't wake up until noon that day and my eyes was puffy as fudge balls. I honestly don't care cause I'm not putting on no makeup, after doing my hygiene and putting my hair in a ponytail I headed downstairs. Guess who I run into, Danny the wicked witch of the east and west and she's smiling. Something ain't right about that y'all.

"Good afternoon Isadora, did you enjoy your night because I know I did. I meet this handsome young man and it appears that he knows you."

After she got those last few words out I felt as tho I was hyperventilating, why is she trying to ruining me. Taking deep breaths to clam myself down, once I got myself together I glanced over at Danny to see her smiling. Wow...she's truly evil! Reiner is actually from this family, "Well I'm glad to hear that but I really rather not listen to anything you have to say witch. Go find some business, matter fact go get a man."

With those words I pushed past her and into the kitchen, there was a few servants in here but I didn't mind. I made myself a sandwich before heading back upstairs so I won't have to deal with anyone.

I miss Reiner, he had to go do some things with Mr. Flanagan today so I'm bored. Suddenly I hear someone knocking at my door, mhmm wonder who that could be. Opening it up, I'm shocked to see Yasmine.

Leaning against the door, "Yes?"

She looked nerves, I just patiently waited on her to reply. "Isadora can I hangout with you for some time?" Yasmin looked at me with these puppy eyes that I couldn't resist so of course I pulled her in. For the next few hours we talked about boys and of course she's curious of the relationship me and Reiner share.

Like I don't understand why others are so concern with me dating someone of a different nationality. I haven't told Reiner but sometimes on my Instagram or Facebook I get people inboxing me about why I'm with that white boy. First of all his color do not matter to me. Hell I found him to be fine that's why I'm with him. Haha just playing but for real it's not a bad thing about him being overall gorgeous. That boy is still a sin himself, but deadass I'm with him because he makes me happy. Gosh it's so hard to find someone that genuinely wants you for you, he has accepted all my problems with open arms. He has never judged me. Never. I'm always happy to see him that I smile from ear to ear. Whenever I looked into those green eyes I get lost and don't know how to come back. Yes I been with him for only two months but if you could understand the connection we share or the deep conversation we have sometimes whenever we're alone. Or how he just looks at me like I'm the most beautiful thing in the world, my heart sometimes skip a beat and beats faster afterwards.

My feelings for this guy is as real as your hair....oh my nevermind you might be wearing weave or braids, so let's rephrase that. Is as real as the heart that's beating in your chest. Anyways back to reality.

Yasmin is cool beans yo, I got her into Naruto so of course we've been watching it while eating on some snacks she went and grabbed.

Feeling someone shaking me I waked up, wiping some slob from my mouth I looked up to see Reiner hovering of me. Smiling I reached for him, he easily leaned down for my hug, I squeezed him tightly. I missed my dragon, after breathing in his scent I let go. Looking next to me I realized Yasmin and I fall asleep. She's out of it, got crumbs on her face and shirt. I couldn't help but to laugh as Reiner lifted her to take to bed. Few minutes later he returned, climbing in next to me after I tied my hair up. I fell right back to sleep with ease because Reiner arms are wrapped tightly around me.

*Christmas Eve*
Well it's my first Christmas with Reiner tomorrow and I'm hype. I can't wait to give him his gifts!!!!

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