Unjust LOVE

1

31st August

Dear diary,
My name is Yoon (of course you know that) and I suck at being in a relationship. Correction: suck and never been in a relationship before. I already reached 18 this year and yes you guess it right! I celebrated without a boyfriend ( TДT) and what hurts me more was that all of my friends attended my birthday party with their boyfriend.

Sometimes, i know they don't actually mean it but they always bragged about how handsome, loving yada yada their boyfriends are. What does that make me? At that moment i just felt like locking myself in my room for thousand of years. I'll just get married to my bed. End of story.

Um but that sounds more pathetic actually.

"Yoon!! You up yet? It's already past 7! Hurry up, the bus might be here soon!!"

My mum's sudden scream from downstairs startled me. Her high pitched scream made me jumped a little from my chair. I took my pen which slipped of my fingers just now and scribbled something quickly on my diary book.

I will update later about my love life pft or else mum would be cray cray about me being late for school.
             -Yoon yoon signing off （●´∀｀）ノ♡

I quickly shut my diary and tossed it in my drawer. I grabbed my pink purplish towel, skipping to the toilet.

"That was refreshing!" I told myself gleefully while scanning myself in the mirror after taking the shower. I glanced at the clock on the wall and phew i have 15 minutes to get ready before the bus arrive.

I put on my school uniform, braided my hair while arranging the books into my bag. I looked at myself in the mirror "I'm such a cutie but why didn't i have a boyfriend yet?" I questioned myself. After a moment of silence, i decided to let that question floats so I went downstairs to get some breakfast.

"Yoon hurry i think the bus is here!" squeaked my mum, handing me my lunch box while kissing my cheeks.

I waved my mum goodbye, marching my way towards the bus.

"Yoon!!!!!" I could feel someone pulling my bag and i knew who it was, who else could it be if it's not..

"Yaaah Taehyung!!!!!! Gimme back my bag" I screamed.

"Come and get it if you're tall enough" He hangs the bag up on my head with his hand and there's me, jumping and jumping and still jumping to get my hands on the bag. Taehyung is about 180cm and me on the other hand, is just 158cm tsk tsk.
"Taehyung, we're going to be late!!! That bus driver is cringy you know!!  He would leave us here any second!! " I pulled his vest.

"Alright alright but let me carry this bag okay little lady" He bent his leg so that his height matched mine. Our face was so close i thought he's going to kiss me.

"Fine fine!" i marched into the bus (i swear i blushed) Taehyung is just taehyung what are you thinking yoon-ah!

I slapped my face again and again (yes i have a habit of slapping myself)

"woo woo yoon what are you doing?!" Taehyung grabbed my hands, preventing me from hitting myself. Taehyung has always been very protective towards me.

Taehyung and i were childhood friends. I didnt have a lot of friends since i was an awkward and a shy kid back then. But taehyung saw what i didnt see in myself. He saw the real me and is very sincere of expressing his friendship. I guess that's why we were still friends up until now. We became closer after my big brother died from cancer 5years ago. Since then, he promised me that he'll be my gurdian,my protector, and a big brother he thought i still deserved. And because of that, i think of him as a friend and a brother, nothing more.

I admit that he grew up to be a very handsome guy and many girls at our school went nuts over him. He was the prince in our school, a brainiac who aced in every test and a sports guy who won most matches held. He was perfect, too perfect. But i still didnt get why he was still sticking with me and our 5years old promise: to be together forever. Because i didnt mind if he leaves me and get himself a girlfriend bcs he deserved those kind of things. He shouldnt be hanging out with little 'ol me. But the fact that he is still staying by my side after all these years kinda made my inner self happy.

"Yoon-ahh! Are you day dreaming?! Yahhh wake uppp"  His screaming made me jumped back into reality real quick.

"Yoon let's go we're here already." Taehyung pulled my hands while walking down the bus as we arrived at school. I think i was still daydreaming (?) or possessed (?) because i didnt even mutter a word. I just followed him to wherever he was taking me. Nah I was just enjoying my time as a princess at school being dragged by my prince charming. I could feel fiery eyes were on me as I slid the hallway with taehyung holding my hand and my bag on his shoulder. I kinda like being the centre of attention and being jealous-ed by girls at my school (ahaksss)

I just want to enjoy this while it lasted because Tae wont be mine forever, I reminded myself.
And then it strucked me, tae wont be mine forever.

"Um taehyung, you dont have to walk me to class. I can go on my own" I cleared my throat while pulling my hand off from his grip.

"But Yoon, I.. " he insisted. But i quickly took my bag from his shoulder and scurried away from him to my class. I need to be independent. I should be.  Taehyung wont be mine forever.  I told myself over and over again while pulling my chair at my desk as i reached the class.