Unjust LOVE

3

Not everyone knew I was dating Yoongi. It's not like we only met each other in secret. We were very public when seeing each other (yes because i wanted Taehyung to know we were together)

If tae saw me together with Yoongi, he would probably walk away, I reassured myself.

It was the third day after me and Yoongi became official couple, news spread to Taehyung.

"Yoon!!!! Yoon-ah!!!! " Taehyung barged into my classroom during my Biology class. Everyone was shocked to see his sudden appearance. The moment Tae saw me, he hurriedly came running towards me without even minding the teacher who was teaching in front. He held my shoulder, putting a pressure to it.

I could see the dissapointment in his face, eyes looking deep in mine as if he just lost something that mean the world to him.
Me.

"Yoon please tell me the rumours of you and Yoongi arent true! Please tell me people were just mistaken about you" He groaned. It was a moment of silence before i finally opened my mouth.

Taking his hands off my shoulders, i slowly said, "Tae, I'm sorry you had to find it out this way but it's true" I forced a smile. "Yoongi and I, um we have been seeing each other recently. It's been 3 days now haha" I let out an awkward laugh.

Taehyung looked so confused. His expression was legit disbelief of what he just heard.

"Yoon.. but.. I" He tried to say something but it sounded like he was trying to keep himself from shedding a tear. A tear? Why would tae shed his tears for me? He is just a brother to me and he said so too that I'm his little sister. I believed that so i avoided any possible love feelings towards him. But he.. Noo it cant be.

"Taehyung, we are in the middle of the class. Please get back to yours as well. This is not a good example from a top student", Mr Hong, our Biology teacher, started getting involved.

"Im sorry sir, I'll find my way out", Tae weakly smiled at Mr Hong while glancing at me, smirking as if he's teasing me (in a bad way)

5th Sept

Dear Diary,
I think I messed up real bad. I think Im okay without Taehyung but no I'm not. I felt miserable. I felt empty. Yoongi is nice, I swear he is. But it's just that my heart isn't meant for him.
Sometimes we held hands while walking along the hallway. Other girlfriends would've jumped in joy if their boyfriends took a hold of their hand. But i was an exception. I felt nothing. There's no 'zing',no spark. Nothing! I swear i tried to love him. But u know some things just wont work.
You know what, i just need a good night sleep. Maybe I'll get dreams on how to work things out.
            -Yoon yoon signing out （●´∀｀）ノ♡

I closed shut my diary, put down my pen. I sighed while looking at my reflection on the mirror in my room. You finally have a boyfriend yoon ah but why are you sighing so much?  I questioned myself.

"I dont knowww!!!" I let out a little scream, (bcs i wouldn't want my parents to wake up at 2am)

I slammed my face on my dressing table. I couldn't help but ball my eyes out. I dont actually get what this tears meant but I still let myself drawn into this unknown cause of my mental breakdown.