The Book of Lies Park Chanyeol Tells You

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"Hello."

•Park Ha Na's POV•

Technically, hello can't be a lie.

I know. It's weird that I put that down as a lie, but I have a reason.

To be honest, it's very simple.

I don't wanna say hi anymore.

I just don't want to say hello.

I'd rather say goodbye, Chanyeol.

Goodbye to you, to Kai, to my shitty family, to everyone who hated me at school because of you.

Goodbye.

I said that last time, but Kai saw me.

At least, Kai knows how to save me.

You're probably thinking "why aren't you with Kai then?"

It's because he probably doesn't love me and I can't do that to him.

Love him as I still loved you.

That's just wrong and I would be the one lying.

I don't wanna lie like you did because I know how that person would feel.

Crushed, alone, worthless, not good enough.

It's the worst feeling ever;

Wanting the person who would only hurt you.

Being alone.

Having your heart crushed into ash.

Knowing that you'll never be good enough for him.

Knowing that you're just a worthless piece of shit who's only reason in the world is to be that loser who's the popular guy's ex.

Wanting to disappear.

Take all those terrible things and combine it together.

Imagine how that feels.

Now, you have to realize that I know exactly how it feels.

It feels like you're silently drowning as everyone around you just pushes you deeper into the water until you can't get out.

Until you drown and it's over.

Some are thankful that it ended, but we can never know since that person's life was taken away and they won't be there to tell us how it is.

Sad, isn't it?

How a person can become destroyed and pull apart buy one person?

You made me start drowning, Chanyeol, and soon I'm gonna drown and it's over.

No more hello's.

Just one more goodbye.

And here it is, my last goodbye.

Are you glad?

You don't have to read these pages anymore.

You don't have to be in anymore chapters of my life because my book has probably ended once you got this.

You put me through a roller coaster ride of good and bad emotions.

Guess which kind of emotions I felt the most?

If you guessed good emotions, your wrong.

I can't deal with these bad emotions anymore, so I'm going to end them and drown.

Keep this, Chanyeol.

Hold on to this because it's the last piece of me you're ever getting because after this there will be no me.

I don't know why, but I can't stop loving you.

That will end soon though.

Goodbye Chanyeol.

It was nice while it lasted.

the end. SIKE! Did I scare you? Don't worry this is not the last chapter, but how do you feel about the book so far? I hope you're liking it :3. Anyways, if you want more stuff like this read my other book called "Let Out The Beast". It is a Kai fanfic that's format is like this. I'd like to consider that and this story poetic, but I'm not really sure. Please vote, comment, and follow me. :3 bye my chogiwas. I'm sorry if this made you sad, but it's okay because it makes me sad too.