Laurence X Reader

#Chapter5

I wonder what part was part of my true life... But back to the chapter, I'm not sure when I can update again since I have two assignments to research for, one for debate, one for a health assignment and I'm studying for two test, gosh! I'm busy this weekend, but I hope that I can do everything before school on Monday. ENJOY!

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[ Key words ]
Y/N - [ Your Name ]
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Dear diary,
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OMGGGGG!! I think I'm gaining feelings for Laurence. It all started when I was on the lunch table with Zane when he was bragging what class he had and to sit next to someone that was chatting with him, what a lone wolf! Me and Zane also eavesdropped on other people's conversations and also told gossip on any interesting things. But also then eating lunch I was researching on different websites for my assignments in one of my classes, and it was due in a week and we started today.

As I got up from our lunch table I tripped over my own feet! Great going Y/N!! All my food scraps fell on me as well as my water which fell on me and the floor... GUESS WHO HELPED ME UP AND THE ONLY PERSON THAT HELPED ME UP... LAURENCE!! He gave me such a sweet smile and I got to hold his hand, SIGH!

My heart almost went out of chest! I couldn't help with blush a little and he handed me tissues, and Zane being part of everyone else was laughing, but I couldn't do anything but slap him up the head. What nice help ZANE!

Ooh! I forgot to mention that I received a message today as well, I swear this guy can write a full small page full of writing... Yes I told Zane, but he kinda found out himself as well, he saw me take the note while he was waiting for me cause we had the same math class I found out as well... The note was rather, emotional should I say I wouldn't expect him to be so personal on one note. I wonder why he decided to send notes to me, maybe he wanted someone with good advice.

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Dear Y/N,
It's me again, the same guy that wrote the first note, this might be a little long cause it's all my feelings on a piece of paper... You are probably wondering why I'm writing this to you and why I wouldn't write this in a diary of something... I'm not that type of person who would usually write on papers writing my past life or my emotions.

I might as well talk about things I wouldn't really say in life to a person, my love life... What about it? I have so many fans that I can't really decide on which girl is the most perfect one for me, it's hard to find girls like you these days and probably girls there are boys that are so hard to find on how they want them. All of us are picky even if people say the aren't, why are some people that we want so hard to find? Or maybe they are perfect but take you as an advantage. Maybe they just wanted you for attention and the great love you give.

I had a friend, she's the same age as us, she's not here anymore... She felt to heartbroken and felt guilty it was all her fault... It wasn't, well we all don't know who's fault it is anyway... I might as well tell you, she was new to high school she was really nice she wasn't a person that wouldn't hate on anyone, apparently to her 'ex' she's the girl any guy would like, she broke it off for personal reasons, she wouldn't tell me.

Answer me this... Is it weird to have her help her own ex to help him get her best friend, I thought she was really stupid to do that. But she did it anyway, every thought it was weird that she helped him. But it was her decision he asked her friend out she said yes, I felt so sorry for her that she had to live with all he guilt, she didn't even want to break it off in the first place but all the time had to live sad her whole life... Apparently it was breaking the ' girl code ' to go out with a friends ex, hey! Some of us need to learn about the girl stuff, plus I was bored.

But the reason why I'm talking about this today... Is because this was the day/week when she felt broken, the week when he asked her, the week when she lived with the guilt, the week where I couldn't do anything, the week that none of us could reverse... I want her back her, I want her to be happy again. But I'm not sure if she could be happy again, she's not here but she died in sadness she was young this is when she was 13 her first ever life relationship. She said to me it was a relationship that no one could ever top, he was nice, kind person and mostly what girl could ever go for.

I know you Y/N you wouldn't tell anyone, you are to scared of the cause it will bring, I knows you. You wouldn't tell anyone without the persons permission. Plus I trust you. I have no one else to tell you telling the guys will make me think I'm soft and take advantage of that, the girls would never help me, you don't have to help me by the way I just want someone to listen to me problems off my shoulders and share my sadness with someone, so they can know my true feelings.

I don't like world no one does, none one is perfect as they said, no one wanted her to end her own life, I am not so sure how much she was thinking about it, her family wen against her since she promise not to be in a relationship as they said relationships bring broken hearts. I was the only person left for her she lived with me and that one night... Where she decided to end everything on her life... Gone.

I will be waiting for your response... If you ever reply.
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Signing out, Y/N

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I actually didn't plan for that whole note to be that long, and I didn't plan to write that long story either.

Author~chan out
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