Dear readers,
It is now the very end of the book, yes the book was very short but I will try to make the next book more longer. I've got a whole lot of gossip on my crush, he's very mysterious and a lot of people ask me why I like him, but there's something about him I got told about. He's very private he's not that type of person to see him socialise with anyone besides the people that is close to him... I decided to give him a Christmas present, I know it sounds so early but even if I met him just know he's still a person that's close to my heart that's goes to every one you of guys and my friends and family.
The song I added is one of my favourite songs I'm not so sure if it really fits with the chapter but I just decided that I wanted to share one of my favourites hope you enjoy!
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[ Key Words ]
Y/N [ Your Name ]
H/C [ Hair Colour ]
E/C [ Eye Colour ]
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Dear diary
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My heart and my feelings have been crushed, I actually don't know how to feel anymore I know this is all sounding dramatic, but let me explain everything. As I said I was meeting the mysterious person who kept writing me letters on Thursday well I saw him but with someone else as well... With... WITH KIM! Why was he with her?! I guess he was girl he was mentioning about that business partner, but does he like her? Well it seems like it... He has got his arms around her and being extra close something he did to me. But the letter said he didn't like her, was it just an act just for their business to grow? Maybe, maybe not.
I just decided to ditch them two to get their ' alone time ' to be honest I should've to Travis at the start as he always said boys bring heartbreak, Laurence is my very first crush so it hurts when he gets to close to a girl to close to Kim. Were all those times we had together weren't real? Did he actually like me I don't even know him well enough though, and plus he doesn't know me enough either. We only hung out and just had short chats.
I arrived home from school, I didn't know what to do anymore so much things were stirred up inside me. I just know Kim would rub all in to everyone including me, I think she knows that I like him I'm more of that type of person that makes things to obvious. I loudly flopped on my bed and grabbed my phone and earphones and I put earphones on and listening to rock music because why not listening to pop right now wouldn't help. There was a knock on the door and looked up, Travis' head popped in then his whole body I place my head on the bed so my whole vision was dark I felt Travis' hand run through my hair and comforting me, I felt like a child again he would always do this and it makes me feel a whole different person. He told me that Laurence and Kim just became a couple which hurt me more as I said I have no experience with boys I don't know what to do know... Live with it? Try and break them up? Get him jealous? Wait how did I know all this stuff?
The next day at school, I saw the, together with a whole bunch of people surround them, wow didn't know gossip goes through so fast, they were holding hands but there was something I noticed, Laurence didn't look happy he didn't look happy at all while Kim looked like she was the queen on the world, well kinda is cause apparently she was the daughter of a big business... I don't even know what's the biggest business in the world which is weird.
I got one and very last note from my locker, I was going to throw it away but Travis was with me this time and he wanted me to read it. I was very scared to even read it.
Dear Y/N,
Well this is going to be the very last note to you, yes it was me Laurence the whole time, I know you wouldn't think it would be me cause look how I am on the outside so confident but in the inside I'm a whole different person... Well that's some people that's why you don't judge a book but it's cover. I know what your thinking I'm dating Kim how does that work and I don't like her, well my parents don't get it I don't like her but they think it's best for the family.
I like a different girl as you know I don't know if you really want to know or not but I'm going to tell you anyway, she's a very nice and wise girl she's beautiful in the inside out even if we don't talk a lot or see each other, but even if evening having a sight of her makes my day, she's got a beauty of a rose, I wasn't able to tell her my feelings because of all the drama that was happening... Still don't know who? Okay then she has fair H/C that is soft and easily to run through the fingers. E/C eyes that you could get lost into... But now I realised that I can never have her now. Yes it's you Y/N I've been having feelings for you for a while, I wanted you to like me without having me trying to flirt with you like I would with almost every single lady.
I want to tell you that to be honest, that I always had you in my mind and sometimes I could even hear your voice from afar, I know it sounds creepy but it's all true. Travis knew I had the likes for you but knew my situation he kinda knows everything that's going on right now. I feel weird that I'm dating Kim right now I hope she would get the hint that I don't like her, she says that I don't notice her but I have always noticed her it was painfully obvious that he liked me yes she was cute but I just don't have the attraction for her.
I have my last three words for you
I love you
From, Laurence Zvahl
He, he likes me?! It's impossible but it is that was his last three words for me, but it still hurts seeing the one you truly like in hands with the girl who was your friend, but I guess I wasn't her friend to her well yeah cause we hardly see each other.
Times passed, it doesn't hurt me anymore, it doesn't bother me anymore I hardly feel anything for him anymore I don't have feelings for anything... Anymore
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Signing out for her last time, Y/N
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I've got a whole lot of shout outs to go through
@ANNA_IS_SAVAGE21 ( hers was giving three prayers so I might as well do the same
1) I pray for you all
2) my friends and family
3) me crush cause why not XD
@RBS_12
@Those_2_Weird_Girls
@Taffyteam
@__Broken__Soul__
I've got to thank you all again for reading my book I will post the credits really soon!
Author~chan out
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