Denial & Desire [ #Wattys2017 ]

Chapter 12: Hallways

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We were all curled up in the shade of the afternoon, today we just felt like having lunch outside. The sun was beaming but our icy drinks mellowed it. Like always Emily never fails to amuse us with one of her stories today's drama was her difficulty in keeping the birthday party for Jake a secret. Honestly, her main problem was that she talked too much.

I took one long sip of my Coca Cola before noticing the girl from yesterday walking across the field. The reason in which my attention is drawn to her is unexplained to me.

I tied my hair in a high top one to prevent it from laying on my neck, my wooly curls were giving me mini heat strokes. I then turned to Emily interrupting her story" That's the girl I saw yesterday while roaming the halls. Have you guys seen her before?" I question turning to my silly friend who was now stuffing her face with tacos.

They both shake their heads motioning no. After Akira clears her mouth of cheese puffs she voiced her previous motion. " No, but she's pretty huh?. I think I don't like her". Her words came at a surprise to me as they were something that I would most likely expect Emily to say so I schooled her " you cannot dislike someone for being pretty you know."

" Really then watch me, " she said tilting her head and swinging away from her face away from me.

Emily eyed Ki an approving look. She was very proud of her friend's statement. Since we weren't having our usual conversation Emily decide to direct the chat along its usual lines " You seem more relaxed today Imani.What happened did your boy-boy fingered you?" She muttered

My mouth dangle from its hinge making way for my gasp. She can be so raw. For a brief moment, I unwilling envision Che in that unholy act. Hiding my blush I pretended not to notice the fact that his fingers were long and the things that they may be able to do. I waved my hands with authority and commanded: " next topic please."

" Why do you always do that. It's perfectly healthy for girls our age to talk about these things." Akira laughed flashing her girl next door style of a smile. If she wasn't my friend and I was by some chance gay I would have to fall for her.

Emily closed the distance between us a bit and muttered in a secretive tone that when I eventually do it, down there is going to feel like the Fourth of July. And with a drastic increase in her voice, she shouted "I'm talking about fireworks. Bang bang! " she sounded off like a gun.

The two girls who were sitting opposite me was my best friends, my ride or dies and day ones. Still, I couldn't believe that I'm unable to bring myself to tell them that I did do it before. I did and it was the worst experience of my life. I tried to bury it, forget it and push it into a little black box in the depths of mind like it never happen.

I wanted it to have never happened. I wanted to tell them I did but I kept putting it off out of fear until one day it just became too hard for me to speak. My first time was with a manipulative asshole who never had one care for me.

They were my friends and I could tell them anything, but I feared they may have seen me in a negative light and think I was dumb and typical. It all sounds silly now but I really thought so and still now that feeling is hampering me from having a heart to heart with them.

They are quite open about their relationship with me so I feel bad that I can't be as open with them. It's still unbelievable that I spoke about it to Che yesterday.