Lover Of The Last

19. Fear Cuts Deeper Than Swords

But I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down...

Arabelle

My reeling thoughts finally went still. I had all my answers, everything had been explained, and yet I felt nothing but confusion. How could I, the most insignificant girl in the kingdom, now be so much more? I couldn't think, and honestly I didn't know what to think about. The fact that I was now apart of this group, The Last, and was Riley's Lover just kept throbbing in my mind.

"H-how do you know?" I stupidly asked. I could feel Riley and I's bond as if it were a physically rope between his heart and mine. I've felt it ever since I met him and knew what they were saying was true.

"A werewolf knows when they find their Lover, and I'm sure you feel it too. It's hard to ignore." Ezra stated, his face holding a concerned look as I looked to him with my hands shaking. "Riley knew who you were the second he met you, and as you can see, has never left you."

I thought about his words and remembered Riley had left me before. For almost a whole month. It was before I knew who he was, and when he returned he was a mysterious prisoner, a human. My mind got confused again when it remembered those times and the moment Riley had killed my king, his wife and their son Nik.

"He has left me, briefly. And when he came back he reviled what he was to me. And also killed my leaders." I said with a dead tone. Getting answers so slowly like this was killing me. I could feel Riley next to me but now I felt like his secrets were just pilling up. I felt betrayed, but didn't know what to accuse him of.

"Arabelle." Sage took a step towards me, her dark eyes watching me closely. "I know that was traumatizing and painful for you but it had to be done. It's all part of the plan of getting you to be queen."

I reached up my hands and pressed them onto my head, trying to keep my mind from breaking my skull out of confusion. They were talking like they knew my life, like Riley had updated them on everything. They thought they controlled my life and had everything figured out. I suddenly wanted nothing to do with the strangers in front of me, I hated them.

"No." I dropped my hands and felt tears finally break loose and pour down my cheeks. "I don't know who you people think you are, but I can't be who you want me to a-and I don't want to be involved with any of this!" My voice was screaming by the end of my rant.

A whimper from the large black wolf next to me twisted at my heart but I couldn't bring myself to care.

Heat coursed through my veins and I shook as no one said anything. Just silence. I noticed Aspen hadn't spoken once. When I looked her way, her eyes were glaring at me like I was an enemy instead of the important person Trystan and the others told me I was.

"We weren't supposed to tell her this early." Aspen spat. "You've haven't let the bond form enough, Riley, and everything we do will be a waste."

They all looked to Aspen and I literally clenched my teeth in anger, I couldn't stand to be around people like this. I wanted to get away from them. I hated not being in control and being betrayed, both of which were happening. I slowly started to back away, just enough so they didn't notice once everyone started to yell at Aspen. They continued to talk, their words having no meaning to me.

"She's the strongest out of all of us, she can do what we ask of her." Sage retaliated in Aspen's direction. I took three steps back.

"Riley brought her here, there's no going back, she knows everything now. Arabelle will who she was desisted to be just like we all will." Ezra said loudly, he eyes shooting daggers at the blonde. I was now a couple feet away with Riley distracted by his 'friends'.