Luna and the Moon [H.S]

30: faithfully yours.

I realised I messed the chapter numbers up. Last chapter was 31 not 32 sorry for the confusion (if anyone actually noticed hahaha) I wanted to make a schedule lmao but some of these chapters are too cute to pass up posting. I get so excited to hear what you's say... so hi here's a cute update xoxo

Dear Luna,

I'm currently sat opposite the bed where Robin is laying. He's got a drip in his arm and it's giving me the creeps because I hate needles, I feel a sting in my arm but there's nothing in it. I told Robin everything. From my feelings to hearing you say you love me when you thought I was asleep, to how I lay awake for hours after you finally went to sleep because I wanted to say it back but I was freaking out a little. To how the night I called you to hear your voice I was going to make date plans and create a super romantic atmosphere to tell you that I love you. To getting an email the next day from my boss — old boss now — and how I started panicking thinking about what you would say.

The reason I'm writing this for you is because I know when I see you, if I see you that is, I won't be able to tell you all of this because it's either going to hurt too much or I'll leave parts out by accident. This way you'll get all my feelings on paper.

Last summer Robin had a heart attack, it scared me and I thought he was going to die then. Apparently everyone knew that if Robin had another one there's a chance he could die because he's so weak... I don't know the full details and I really don't want to it's hard enough seeing him in this white room, hearing that stupid beeping heart monitor and hearing the crisp bedsheets crunch every time he wriggles. There's this one thread, I swear it's getting bigger, it's poking up just next to his chin as he's holding the blanket to his chin... Anyway, it keeps distracting me then he smacks me over the head for daydreaming.

Robin wanted me to write this, I wasn't going to bother, I was just going to try tell you as much as I could and see what happened.

But you see, you have this look, it's a very intense one and it kind of scares me and makes my heart go all weird and it makes my stomach flip a couple hundred times. Doesn't help that your eyes are so damn dark, although they always remind me of chocolate buttons... And I happen to really like chocolate buttons.

As I was saying, I couldn't tell you everything or close to everything because of this damn look you give me. It makes my knees practically shake. It's weird. I hope I don't have a look??? Tell me if I do please, I'll try fix it.

So I'm going to start with how I felt when I heard you say you love me.

I wasn't sleeping, I know I seemed like I was but I wasn't, I almost did until I heard you speak. I don't know what I thought you were going to say but I love you was not it. At this point I had been battling my inner thoughts of do I love you? Or am I simply just falling in love with you rather slowly? I didn't know, because when I loved Kate it wasn't like this, it took ages till I felt something and that was super annoying. But this time the second I saw you for the first time and I looked into your eyes and I wanted to run away and hide, because I didn't understand why or how I could feel something so quickly.

Robin said sometimes you just get that spark with the right person. I laughed for a moment or two before really thinking about it. Life is a weird thing, the human heart is a weird thing, feelings are a weird thing... You don't really have an instruction manual that tells you how everything works and that's what is so crazy. Because I want to know who picks out the people that walk right into my life, maybe chat with them and tell them my ideal girl. I tell you, not to hurt your feelings but because I'm being honest... You're not her.