Kpop Imagines (On Hold)

#6 - Luhan (EXO)

"Ping Ping? You dropped this," a sweet, soothing voice said to me, holding my pen in his hand. I looked up to see Luhan, as angelic as ever. His smile was so bright, it blinded me, and I was forced to block his shine. 

"Wah! So bright!" I exclaimed.

"Excuse me?" he asked, confused. 

My face turned red, "N-nothing. Thank you." I received the pen and put it back in my pencil case. No one knew about my secret crush on Luhan. I didn't even tell my best friend. No, it was absolutely secretive, and I would write my feelings and experiences with him in my diary, which I kept with me at all times. I patted the bag in which I placed it in today. Instead of feeling the hard cover of the diary, I felt nothing but pure cloth. Where is it? I dig around in the bag, searching frantically for my journal. 

"What are you looking for?" Luhan curiously peeked behind my shoulder.

I hid my bag behind my back and stuttered, "N-nothing. Nothing at all." 

"Why do you always answer 'nothing' when I ask you something?" He scratched the side of his neck, "Don't you... have anything else to say to me? Am I that boring?"

"N-NO! Not at all! I'm just a bit socially-awkward, that's all. Oppa is never boring. You're the cutest guy-" I clasped my hands over my mouth after I blurted that out. Did I just say that? The teacher entered the classroom and Luhan went back to his seat with a smile on his face. Something hit me, and I picked up the paper ball that was on the ground. On it read:

You don't deserve Luhan-oppa. I'm going to spill your secrets to the world.

My eyes met Jennie's, the "prettiest" but no doubt most the most popular girl in the class. In her hand was my journal, and she waved it around with a smirk on her face. How I wished the world would know her true identity. She was bratty, Luhan-obsessed, and would do anything to get things her way. Raising up a hand, she asked in her goody-two-shoes voice, "Sonsaengnim? I have some interesting logbooks to share with the class~"

"Sure, Jennie. Come on up." 

Jennie walked up to the front of the classroom, but wait - why was she holding my journal in her hand? Just realizing what was happening, I shot up from my seat to stop her.

"I know you're a bit excited for what Jennie's going to show us, but please sit back down, Ping," the teacher told me, making my classmates laugh. I blushed reluctantly sat back down.

Smiling mockingly, Jennie cleared her throat and started, "February 13th. Dear Diary, Luhan-oppa started a conversation with me today! I didn't know what to do! I must have acted so dorky, hadn't I? But anyways, it was a good feeling. Having such a cute and nice guy talk to you isn't easy, but he makes me feel like I'm in heaven. Oh Diary, could it be I've already fallen in love with him? I musn't tell anyone though. It's a secret just between you and me."

The class was already chatting with each other, trying to figure out who was the author of these embarrassing journals. Luhan was red and looked down at the floor, avoiding everyone's gaze and whispers at him. Shut up, Jennie, I thought, hoping it was enough to silence her. But instead, she continued, "February 14th, Dear Diary, I did something really embarrassing today. I stuffed a love note in Luhan-oppa's desk, and I'm pretty sure he found it. He had no reactions to it, though. Can it be that he is annoyed with all the girls giving him love notes? My heart is tied up in knots. I am sure I love him... But does he feel the same?

"March 13th, Dear Diary, I feel as if Luhan is starting to talk more to me, but I'm always so nervous when I'm around him! I see him laughing and fooling around with Sehun-oppa, and sometimes I really am jealous of him. Gyah, this is not good, is it? Look at me now, I'm writing all my feelings to a notebook... If only you were human, Diary-ssi..." she took a pause before reading the last part, "Sincerely, Ping."

Gasps and murmur aroused everywhere in the room. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes, and I was sure many eyes were staring at me. I took my bag and sprint out of the classroom, hearing my teacher and Luhan yell after me. I ran and ran, wanting to outrun the embarrassment. Now I can never face Luhan the same way again... 

"PING!" I heard him shout. I could hear his voice growing louder and louder, and I was sure he was running after me. "Ping!" he breathed, grabbing a hold of my wrist. "What was that?" No doubt he was mad.

"I'm sorry, Luhan-oppa. I didn't mean to embarrass you..." 

"What I'm asking is that what was that all about? How did I not know that you liked me? Why didn't you tell me?"

"I was scared. Scared to be rejected. I was already satisfied to be able to stay by Oppa's side and support him. I never asked for more. I'm really sorry. I-" He pulled me into his arms and clasped them around my waist. "Luhan...Oppa?"

"Don't say that you're sorry. Please. It makes me feel that I've hurt the one I love." My eyes widened. What was he saying? "Ping, I love you. I know I'm not like other guys, who are out-going and talkative, and would pick up a conversation with the girls they like without difficulty, but I do love you. So don't leave."

"Aren't you afraid of what others will say? I'm not pretty, or that smart, or popul-"

"You're the most beautiful girl in my eyes, and the kindest. Nothing else will ever matter to me. As long as you love me, I can live without popularity, without fame, without anything." 

He pulled my away gently and wiped my tears away. Then, he leaned over me and pecked my lips. "Ping, wo ai ni."

I placed my arms around his neck, "I love you more."