cherry eyes

i saw ballads bleed out beethoven | c

my fists hurt and i wipe sweat from my eyes again. i cannot escape this mermaid motel. miraculous piano music begins to play a sonnet from the brick red building above me. it is strange - i know this song - how do they know that it is my favorite piece? but nobody could play it like beethoven. i am shocked when my beloved beauty is played with the precise finesse; a melodic and entrancing melody, that of my divine melody god. i can do nothing but sway in its gentle company.

but the symphony starts to get louder and louder until it is such an unbearable extent that, even if i refused to examine it, i would be forced to and my ears begin to bleed.

from up above, a man i used to worship like the moon bows to his earth, beethoven is laughing hysterically at the cloud of fear puffing from a pipe out of my chest. my dreams are no longer waltzing with the stars, for they have learned the ritual my stoned uncle likes to call 'the hell hot crash and burn where you end up with nothing because you are nothing' principle.

i am afraid because now i know this piece is being preformed especially for me. i am afraid because now the phantoms that haunt me know the music i listen to. my safe haven is lost but i know exactly where it is. in the hands of the crimson cacodemon, my sonata sprinkles acid purpose onto its skin but there is no pain here for my mind has stolen it all.

beethoven's traitorous words are swirling around my head like a never-ending soft serve. he bellows out mercilessly that now i have nothing. i look into the gaping hole of his where mine would perpetually smoke trepidation and watch as he plants my happiness deeply inside, along with the ballads that long to spill out.

i have nothing to play anymore, he took it all. beethoven, please come back to me and relieve me from this grief.

____

omg i sincerely apologise for the horrible, unorganised content, but sis, emotion is a way too unpredictable to not be used in a messy expression of art. thank u and have a lovely day/night. also, pls vote and comment! they make me feel how you feel when you smell a smell that reminds you of home or someone you love. a great feeling. love you! - sanny 😙