Turning Sixteen

Chapter 23: Almost there..

I cry as he keeps on speaking and I don't utter a single word.

It all started making sense. All of it.

"But Ellen figured it out eventually when she saw me kissing Brittney at that party..." He says guiltily.

"I begged her not to tell you or anyone else for that matter so I dealt this secret with her..I told her Justin liked you and that it isn't gonna go the way she wants it to. She felt hurt and cheated on, because Justin had been hanging out a lot with her to know about you but she felt otherwise.."

I bite my lip as I connect the dots.

That day in school when she said she broke up with Justin, she snapped at me and had said If I didn't know it already...that spontaneous 'Yes' to Tyler's proposal, everything got linked..

Even that day, at the party, I actually wondered if Michael fell from nowhere because I did not spot him anywhere..

"Why did you call me the other day to ask if I was okay after that right of yours with Nick?" I ask intrigued. If he wasn't what he pretended he was to me all this while, why would he do that?

"I wouldn't have.." he started and it stung. It hurt so much that I couldn't believe it anymore.

"But Justin insisted on checking on you if you were okay he made me do it."

I am completely shocked at what he says.

All the while it was Justin looking out for me like a guardian and that in disguise? Michael never cared..he never loved me..but Justin? I never even thought about it in my wildest of dreams.

"I'm so sorry Amelia...I didn't mean any of what I've done.."

"Yeah you didn't..not even the kisses." I said bluntly void of any emotion..

"I'm sorry but yes..I thought it's gonna be real but I didn't feel that way..I'm so sorry Melia, I-I can't even say I'm sorry because I just found my girl who's not you, and I can't be sorry about it, I'm sorry I cheated on you but hey, that's how we were supposed to be," he pauses.

I don't feel any emotions anymore. It's difficult getting over him. It's difficult being angry even.. I don't feel angry anymore... I feel empty, my mind searches for reasons why I couldn't see it was Justin all the while.

"Okay Michael, thank you for telling me all of this. I really needed to know it and I don't know who would have told me if you didn't. I though we'd work out but we didn't and it's fine, you're just not the one for me yet. But I do need you to know, that someday somewhere you shall realise the importance I gave you, it wasn't just what any other person would get from me, you held a special place in my heart which not you could stay in...I'm sorry for being such a piece of apprehension, you were scared of hurting me and that's because you didn't want to lose me,and even though it calms me down and makes me happy that you didn't want to lose me, what hurts is, you wanted me for Justin, not for you."  I finish in one go, and I sniffle a little sob and decide to stay strong through this.

It's good, I thought, I don't want toxic people who fake themselves in front of me and go on behind my back. I'd rather have no one and be alone than have people like these who would rather bend low and pull me with them.

My heart searched for that person who was always invisible in my life, whom I always dissed always got wrong. How could I not realise someone, somewhere loved me so deep? So much, that he put up a fake reputation of a bad guy just in order to put a smile to my face and just see me happy?

What kind of love is it if it isn't powerful enough to warm me over a distance?

The distance separated me and Michael but the same distance bought Justin close to me. So close that I didn't even realise it was him when I always saw him.

I wanted answers and this day, I was getting them, at any cost.

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I take a shower again carefully with my cast not bothering me this time.

My life was so corollary to the cast and my hand inside.

Michael was a façade, the cast, which yellowed over time and protected me from the outside world, but Justin was the sling, he kept us all together healing me inside out, whilst I only complained of the pain I felt at the back of my neck.

I put on bold fierce makeup, much heavy to my surprise. I had planned a sweet simple look for this day, but the past few hours changed everything.

I blow dry my hair and straighten it much to my surprise, when I thought I'd curl it.

See, that's the thing about time.

You don't know what's gonna happen. One moment you think you're gonna be this and you're almost very sure about it, but right before it happens, it's all something you never thought it'd be.

I slip in the dress as I put on bright red lipstick on my lips, put on a pair of black heels and look at myself in the mirror.

This is who I am.

The strong plaster of me being the good girl next door is not who I am. I am a bold girl, confident and strong in myself, it's not easy to knock me down. I'm only getting up at you when you think I'm falling and crumbling down.

I am me, and maybe the most awaited catastrophic predicament.

I grab my clutch, and pull my phone out of charging, and it's already 5:30 and I'm all set to go, when I look at myself and in the mirror one last time.

"Go get it, girl."

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Wohoooo xD

What up sass queen xD
It's almost ending.. :(

Im so sad. (Lil bit) I didn't even think I would come to this point of ending this.

Anyway a few more chapters to go still..

Ap