The 100 ➳ Preferences

♕ Love Me - John Murphy ♕

Requested by: Reggie94

Prompt: 4. "Why are you so afraid of loving me?"

Enjoy!

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Y/N's POV

It was one week since Murphy asked me to be his girlfriend. Of course I said yes but I didn't understand why he played it off in front of his boys. He never admitted that he loved me, but I know he did. 

One day I was working in medical and helped Clarke to stitch up some boys, who came back from hunting. "So, what's going on between you and Murphy?" She asked me, while I stitched up someone's eyebrow. "What do you mean exactely?" I aksed back because I was sure that she knew about our relationship. "Well, I know you love him, but I'm not sure if he feels the same way."

"Of course he does!" I snapped back. "I just mean, he never says it or kiss you in front of other people. I know he's Murphy and never shows his emotions-" Clarke started, but I stopped her. "I know he loves me and that's all I need to know." I said, but at that moment I wasn't sure if that was all I wanted to know. Clarke had a point and when we finished our job on medical I was walking to my tent, thinking about what Clarke said.

So, I decided to go to Murphy's tent instead. He was standing in front of it and talked to Miller. "Hey." I said smiling. "Hey, excuse me for a moment." He said to Miller and then came over to me. "What are you doing here?" He asked me softly. "I wanted to see you." I smiled.

"I thought you were helping Clarke in medical." "I was. And now I'm here." I smiled. He smiled back to me. Before he could say anything I gripped the hem of his shirt and stood on my tiptoes so that I was taller and kissed him. He didn't really kissed me back, instead he took a step backwards and looked at me awkwardly. "Did I do something wrong?" I asked. He shook his head and looked over to Miller, who looked at us wide-eyed.

"I can't believe it! Boys, come over here! John Murphy is in love!" He shouted at his boys, grinning. Murphy just glared at him and then looked back at me. "I'm sorry." He said, but you didn't understand. "What do you mean? John?" You asked but he didn't answered. "What's that supposed to mean?" You asked again, this time earning a glare from him.

Then Miller's boys approched us, grinning and laughing. "Thought she was just your girl for the night." Then you realized what his behaviour was about and you remembered what Clarke said back in medical. "I'm not! He loves me! Right, John?" You said to the boys and then looked at your boyfriend. He runned a hand through his hair. "Love is big word. I like you and you like me.." He stottered. You couldn't believe what he was saying.

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Later that day you two were alone at his tent. "What do you mean 'you like me'? I thought we had a thing going on?" You asked him. "We have. And I'm happy about that."

"Then, why are you so afraid of loving me?" You asked him, tears welling up in your eyes. "I'm not." He started and then he realized what he did to you. "I'm sorry, Y/N. I'm sorry that I never kissed you in public. I'm sorry that I never said it to you. But I do love you." He smiled slightly.

"And from now, everybody will know it, when I kiss you out there." You smiled and forget about your tears when he held you close to him and kissed you.

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This was my first imagine written from a prompt, so I hope you like it! At first I didn't know where this was going, but I hope you enjoyed it!