Through Sex, Drugs, and Rock n' Roll (sequel to Sixx saved me)

"We have our tour dates Joan!" Nikki burst into the room with a paper in his hand. He waved it around excitedly. I immediately shot up from the floor and ran to him.

"Show me!" I said. He put the paper in my hand and I read all the dates. "Wow this is really long..." I mumbled.

"I know." His voice suddenly became low and he sounded sad... maybe angry. "I wish it wasnt. I was gonna ask if you could just come with us." He took the papers slowly. I looked up at him and smiled.

"Id love to but the boys will probably think im in the way and get annoyed. And Syd... So maybe I should just stay home."

"No. The guys like you, they think youre cool. Syd will be okay." He pulled me into him and wrapped his arms around me.

"But being around me and a baby all the time wont be fun."

"Are you sure you just dont want to come? Cause thats what it sounds like." He laughed a little.

"I do... but I dont want the guys to get annoyed with me being moody all the time and a crying baby and start to not like me." I pulled away and started walking to the bedroom. Nikki followed close behind me.

"They wont, I promise. Please come with us. I'll miss you two so much if you dont." He slid his arms around my waist from behind me and kissed my neck. I closed my eyes and turned my head towards his.

"Really?"

"Really." He kissed my my cheek.

"Mmmhm... so do you wanna go anywhere tonight?" I asked.

"I actually think the guys wanna come over and talk about the tour." He mumbled into my neck. I sighed and turned around to face him. He kissed my lips and put his hands on my cheeks.

"When?"

"Whenever they get here I guess." He kissed me again and started walking into me, making me walk backwards and fell onto the bed.

"Nik... Nik I think I hear Syd cryin." I wispered. He sighed and rolled off of me.

Yah... Syd. We names our beautiful little girl Syd after Syd Barrett. I love Syd Barrett. He just kinda fascinates me. He was also extremely gorgeous too. But I wont tell Nikki that.

"That damn baby... shes almost five months old and she still doesnt know how to take naps." He joked. I just laughed and climbed off of the bed. I went into the next room and picked our fussing baby girl out of her crib. I cradled her in my arms and shushed her. She started to calm down and fixxed her gaze onto to face.

"Hello baby Sixx!" I wispered. "Whats wrong, huh? Are you hungry? Do ya need a bottle?" I grabbed a blanket and wrapped it around her then walked into the kitchen. I put her in her rocker and started to prepare a bottle of milk for her. While the milk was warming, I watched her intentively, while she did the same to me. Nikki walked in just as I was pouring the milk into the bottle. He took her out of her rocker and held her close to his chest.

"You look real good with a baby. It looks real tuff." I joked. He rolled his eyes and took the bottle from me. I hopped up to sit on the counter top as he started to feed her.

"I just cant get over how adorable she is Jo." He said quietly.

"I know. She gets it from her daddy."

"No, her mom." I rolled my eyes and hopped off of the counter. I stood next to Nikki and we both watched Syd carefully as her eyelids started getting heavy and she started to doze off. He pulled the bottle from her mouth and set it on the counter.

"Im gonna just... sit in the livingroom with her" He walked into the livingroom and I put the bottle back in the fridge, then followed him in. He was sitting on the couch aith his legs propped up on the coffee table. Syd was laying in his lap, facing him. He sat there, watching her sleep. As I stood there watching him. Just then the door burst open and Tommy, Mick, and Vince sauntered in. Tommy and Mick were arguing about something, but stopped when they saw Nikki with Syd.

"Shes sleeping." He said.

"Oh let me see!" Tommy sat down next to Nikki and looked at Syd. He smiled widely and looked at me.

"You guys really musta had fun to make such a cute baby!" He joked. I scoffed jokingly and walked over. I took Syd from his lap.

"Im gonna take her into the other room so you guys can talk about all this tour stuff." Nikki and Tommy nodded. "Its nice to see you two!" I said to Vince and Mick. They both smiled.

"Yah its been a while hasnt it!" Vince exclaimed. "Ever since you had Syd and couldnt come to the bars and our shows with us. We sure miss ya though. You were a trip to be around!" I laughed and proceeded to walk into out bedroom. I shut the door and layed on the bed with Syd layed on my stomach. She slowly fluttered her eyes open and looked at me intentively.

"Hey baby girl" I cood. "Daddys out there with his band buddys. So its mommy daughter time now." She yawned and stretched out her little arms, expanding her starfish shaped hands. "How was my baby girls nap, huh? Did you have sweet dreams? About pretty flowers and micky mouse? I know you like micky mouse." I smiled at her and sighed. "My god, a year ago or somwthin like that I would have never imagined this, having a beautiful baby girl and being married to Nikki. Let alone being married at all." I chuckled. Syds eyes were fixated on mine. I put my finger to her hand and she clasped it tightly, as if she would never let go. "Im so happy though. I love you Syd, I love your daddy too..." I trailed off. I started  thinking about Steven... and Bill. "Oh Syd... I had a friend before. His name was Steven... I loved him a lot. He was my best friend. He got killed trying to save me though. Oh what I would give to change that day. Steven would be alive... but Bill wouldnt be in jail... but id rather have him alive. He didnt deserve to die baby. He was really one of the sweetest human beings to ever walk the earth. You would have loved him, amd boy he would have loved you." I swallowed. "Your daddy was there too... so was his band buddies. They saved me from Bill, he did very bad things to me and I needed help. Your daddy and his buddies helped me. Your daddys my hero Syd. I love him so much. He's gonna be the best daddy you could ever ask for. I promise." I stopped and wiped a tear from under my eye. Syd smiled, and squeezed my finger a little harder. I heard a couch and my head shot up. Nikki, Tommy, Vince, and Mick were all standing there smiling at me. I felt my face go red as Nikki walked in and sat next to me.

"That was cute Joan." He smiled.

"Oh my god this is embarrassing." I covered my face and they all laughed.

"Oh come on Joan! Its nothing to be embarrassed about! Nikki talkes to her like that sometimes too! I think its cool. She doesnt even understand what youre sayin, but you talk to her anyways. It just shows how much love you have for her." Mick said. I smiled and looked at Nikki, who was looking at me lovingly.

"Go and do what you were doin." I said quickly, shooing them away with my hand.

"Okay... you should come out too, were talkin about the tour." I sighed and rolled my eyes.

"Nik... im not taking a baby on tour. Its not a good place for her." He dropped his head down and sighed.

"I know... I just... I dont want to be away from my two girls." He said quietly. I heard the boys snickering in the doorway and I flipped them off.

"Well I dont care what you say. Im not going and Syd isnt going. Its final."

"Fine." He wined. I smiled and kissed him. We both climbed off the bed and we all went into the livingroom.

"So," Vince smiled as we all sat down. "The tour!"