Through Sex, Drugs, and Rock n' Roll (sequel to Sixx saved me)

7

"I'm gonna go get Syd." I said quietly as I walked towards the door.

"Alright." Nikki was getting dressed and doing his hair. After yesterday, he had been nothing but sweet to me. I woke up to breakfast in bed. He watched a movie and cuddled with me til 10:00. Now its 10:30 and I thought it would be nice to see my little sweetheart again. I walked out of the room and went a couple doors down to Vince's room. I knocked on the door three times and waited. I heard someone shuffle to the door and it unlock. Vince showed up, looking completely exhausted with Syd in his arms.

"Goodmorning sunshine! Have fun watching the baby last night?" I said cheerfully. He rolled his eyes and handed her to me, then went to get the diaper bag. I stepped inside and closed the door. Tommy was laying on the bed, only half cocered up with the sheets and mick was laying on the floor with a bottle of Jack Daniels in his hand. I chuckled a little bit and looked at Syd. She was fussy and squirmy, so I guess Vince hadnt fed her or anything.

"Vince have you fed her this morning?" I asked as he handed me her bag.

"At like 6." He yawned.

"Okay. Thanks for watching her. I think me and Nikki just needed some time to talk things out. Ya know, straighten some stuff out." I slung the bag over my shoulder and gave Vince a quick kiss on the cheek before heading for the door. I closed it behind me and started walking towards out room again. I was about half way down when I looked up and saw someone running towards me. My eyes widened as I realized who it was. It was Bill and he was coming right after me. I sprinted to my door and fumbled with the key, just in time to slip myself and Syd inside and lock it. I heard him yell vile things and pound on the door. I ran to Nikki, who was sitting on the bed.

"Nikki he found us again! Hes outside the door!" I cried. He looked absolutely confused as I babbled on.

"Woah, slow down baby. What happened?" He took Syd from me and held her to his chest, then put an arm around me.

"Its... Bill... hes out there banging on the door!" I gasped through my terrified sobs. Nikki looked at me with the utmost confusion.

"Joan... baby." He pushed the hair out of my eyes and cupped my face in his hand. "Theres no one pounding on the door." He said quietly. I furrowed my eyebrows and shook my head.

"No... no, hes yelling at me right now. He's... He just told me that I'm his and I can never get away from him." I started to get freaked out. "How can you not-" I perked my head up and noticed the yelling and banging at the door had stopped. "It stopped." I wispered. "Go... go look out the door." I said shakily. "Make sure he's not there anymore." I took Syd and pushed Nikki to the door. He walked to the door and looked out the peep hole and shook his head.

"Joany, theres no one there sweetheart." He said as he slowly made his was back to me. I shook my head and stood up.

"No... no no no no no, he was running right at us. He... he was out there!" I said, sounding almost desperate. He took Syd from me and put her in her crib. I followed him and took his hand. He turned to me and wrapped his arms around me.

"Joan, he was never there. Maybe you saw someone and you throught it was Bill." He wispered to me while he petted my hair to calm me.

"Well then who was yelling at me and banging on the door? I know his voice... it was him." I said into his chest. He rubbed my back and lowered his head down and kissed the top of my head. I felt my face engulfed in his long black hair and I breathed in the oh-so familiar scent of hairspray and cigarettes. It relaxed me a little bit and I calmed down a little bit.

"It wasnt him. And if it was, I wouldn't let h get to you and Syd. Me and the boys would get him before he could ever get you. He couldnt have gotten out of jail and got here in this time anyway." I wiped my eyes again and looked up at him.

"Nikki, I swear it was him. I swear it was!" I had this feeling in my stomach. I really didn't like it. It was a feeling of desperation, hatred, and fear all in one. I dont know who I hated. Maybe myself for pulling Nikki into all of this mess. I mean, if he wpuldnt have helped me that day, he would have just went on living a carefree life. I would be dead probably and he wouldnt have to worry about me. That would be better.

That would be better.

It has to be better.

He doesnt want so much worry in his life. He doesnt want to have to be scared of me getting hurt if im gone. All I have to do is-

"Joan?" He shook me a little and snapped me out of... whatever I was in.

"Huh? What?" I said feeling a bit dazed.

"Are you alright?" He said in a low voice. I swallowed amd shook my head.

"Yah... yah, im alright. Im... I think im gonna take a shower." I said. I hadnt really looked at his face yet, and I wasn't planning on it. I just needed to-

"Joan we should talk about this." He said quietly, trying to pull me back to him. I shook my head and felt myself start to breath fast.

"No, I need to shower." I yanked my arm away and walked to Syds crib. I leaned down and kissed her forhead. "Goodbye Syd. I absolutely love you." I wispered. I stood up straight and walked to the bathroom. I could feel Nikki's eyes burning through the back of my head. I closed the door and locked it, then looked around the bathroom. Nikki's razer was on the counter. I stared at it for a moment, before proceeding to take it and put it against my wrist. I felt the cold blade against my thin pale skin. Then I felt myself freeze.

I couldn't move.

I couldn't think.

I couldn't breath.

I sat there. Time felt like slow motion as I saw a figure appear in front of me. It wasnt Nikki. It wasnt Vince or Tommy or Mick.

It was Bill.

I slowly looked up and saw him smiling down at me. I tried screaming but no noise would come out. I tried moving but my body was frozen. He grabbed my arm and pulled me up to his face.

"So, you still thought you could get away?" He wispered coldly. "Haven't I told you? I will always find you Joan. You're mine." He lifted his fist to hit me, but all the sudden he disappeared into nothing. I was on thr floor again.

"Joan!" Nikki yelled from the outside of the bathroom. "Joan answer me!" He screamed and banged on the door. I looked at my wrist and noticed blood pouring from it. The razer was laying on the floor next to me in an almost puddle of blood. The crimson red reflected all of my surroundings. I started to feel tired. I fought it back, but it soon became to strong. I slowly closed my eyes as Nikki kicked the door in and made his way towards me. He grabbed me and started yelling. It was all slow motion and fuzzy. All I heard was buzzing and a high pitched noise.

Then it was black.