The Life of Jade Popper

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                                                              There were a few fans I would actually talk to about the situation on DM as I sat at the park by myself. I shouldn't have let him kiss me. I shouldn't have been so stupid. A million thoughts were going through my head as I listened to one of my favorite songs on my phone. Everything was quiet and it was getting dark. I liked it. It reminded me of Harry and I's wonderful date. I leaned against the tree and let my eyes wonder up to the sky as Coldplay sang to me. 

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face

And I...

Tears stream down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face

And I...

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

I let the tears slowly stream down my face, my head pounding from the recent tears I had shed. My body fell limp, trembling from the racking sobs escaping through my lips. I tried to hold them in, but nothing worked. And before I knew it, I grabbed my bag and began searching for any sharp item I could use to pierce my skin. The urge was getting stronger, a sick feeling erupting in the pit of my stomach. My vision was getting blurry now and I was having trouble locating the spare razor blade set I carried around at all times. "Jade!" I heard my name, my eyes getting wide. No, no. no. This can't be happening. I started to jump to my feet, but I was too dizzy to do so. 

I spotted Harry not too far away and started crying even harder when The Fray began to speak to me. "Leave me alone!" I shouted at him as he ran up to me. He stood above me, his eyes narrowed in confusion. "Come on, Jade... Let's go home," he told me and bent down to pick me up or help me up. I swatted at his hands and started crawling away, my body shaking from my tears. "Jade, stop," he shouted and my body collapsed. I fell weak and my body was limp, shaking even worse than before. I could have possibly thrown up from the urge to harm myself. It was getting stronger with each sweet word Harry would say. I couldn't speak, no matter how hard I tried. "I love you," he repeated, rocking both of us back and forth. I squeezed my eyes shut as I held onto his body tightly.