Thank You, Stranger. || Namjin ✓

14.

They were sitting on the couch not saying a word. Seokjin made them a coffee and gave Namjoon a cup with hearts on it which made him less mad.

"I was thinking about something.", Namjoon said and took a sip of his hot black coffee,"We didn't officially declared ourselves boyfriends, right?"

Seokjin took a sip of his coffee as well and nodded.

"You said you're not ready for any kind of relationship at the moment, but you still kiss me whenever you come to work... I mean, you even gave me a blowjob.." - Namjoon shrugged his shoulders and looked at Seokjin.

Seokjin didn't know what to say on that because he knew he was being contradictory towards Namjoon. It took him a minute before he started talking.

"I know you're confused when it's about our relationship, but I am too.." - Seokjin felt a large stone pressing his heart. He wanted to tell him everything, but he just couldn't.

"I think the thing that we're in is in fact a relationship, but it feels like you're trying to neglect that fact." - Namjoon was serious once again.

"I don't want to neglect it.. It's just still hard for me to accept the fact I'm in a relationship." - Seokjin felt anxious and sat a little further from Namjoon.

"Is it because I'm a guy? Have you ever gotten a girlfriend before?"
"No.. It's not because of that..", Seokjin shrugged his shoulders and sighed,"And also I've never had a girlfriend. I don't consider girls sexually attractive."

"Then why are you like this? Why is it so hard for you to accept me? Whenever I talk with you or kiss you or even look at you, it just feels like you're having some kind of a blockade." - Namjoon wasn't sounding angry anymore. He was truly hurt this time.

"I... well, I.." - Seokjin really didn't know what to say. He knew he couldn't say the truth, but also didn't want to make some lame excuses, so he just sighed again and looked away.

Namjoon didn't want to be pushy and he noticed he overburdened Seokjin with his questions. They were drinking coffee in silence for a while. Both of them felt emotionally empty.

"I can't see our future when you're like this...", Namjoon said after taking the last sip of the coffee," I... I like you, Seokjin. Please don't do this to me.."

Seokjin felt like his heart was about to shatter. His eyes were already teary, but he was trying hardly not to let them flow.

"I like you, too. You shouldn't doubt that." - Seokjin couldn't find more clever words.
Namjoon nodded not fully trusting Seokjin's words, but he still didn't want this situation to get even more tense.

"I saw the way you were looking at those two guys..." Namjoon said looking very concentrated,"I saw your eyes when they came inside the café. You looked like you died at that moment and after several seconds somehow got back to life again.

Seokjin felt a sharp pain his stomach. His anxiety was so strong he felt like dying.
"Um... A- about that..", Seokjin couldn't talk on that topic without stuttering,"I know th- them from highschool."

He was not that bad at lying, but this time his emotions overtook him and he couldn't control himself any longer. The tears started falling on their own.

Namjoon sat next to him and put Seokjin's head on his chest. Seokjin felt safe in Namjoon's embrace, but he also felt guilty for not telling him the truth.

After Seokjin calmed down, Namjoon let the boy from his embrace and put his hands on Seokjin's shoulders.

"You know I'm not a pushy type. I know something seriously bothers you and that something has made a barrier between you and other's around you... I just want you to know you can tell me anything anytime and I'll listen to you and I'll be there for you. But if you keep that inside forever, I'll never be able to help you."

Just as Seokjin calmed down, Namjoon's last sentence brought him unrest. Namjoon saw he overburdened him again, so he just kissed him tenderly. It was something Seokjin needed.

After kissing the crying boy several times, Seokjin finally said something.
"I can't sleep with you, Namjoon." - It sounded like something inside of him just died after saying those words.

Namjoon was shocked and confused by those words because it was seriously not something he expected to hear at that moment.

"But why?" - Namjoon wanted to know desperately.
"I just want to sleep next to you in my bed. I'm too agitated to talk right now.." - Seokjin sounded very weak. It looked like he was going to faint.

Namjoon's question was once again ignored, but he saw Seokjin was really weak and not behaving normally, especially after he saw those two guys.

Namjoon put Seokjin's hand around his neck and raised him up. He asked Seokjin where his room was and the boy just pointed his index finger at the bedroom's door.

Namjoon took Seokjin's clothes off and covered him on the bed. He afterwards took his own clothes off only staying in boxers and shirt, just like Seokjin.

He pulled Seokjin closer to him. He was smelling his soft hair and kissed him on the nape. The amount of tenderness made Seokjin fall asleep.

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Seokjin opened his eyes and looked around him. He was alone in his room and a bit sweaty. He went outside his room to search for Namjoon, but couldn't find him.

Maybe he's in the bathroom taking a shower. - Seokjin thought still feeling like he took three sleeping pills with vodka. He opened the door and went inside, but there was no one.

It was clear Namjoon left the apartment and that made him moody. He went to the kitchen and saw a note on the table.

Ugh the notes again. - He thought while unwrapping the piece of paper.

· I couldn't sleep so I went out of bed soon after you've fallen asleep. I wanted to make you a dinner, but when I opened the refrigerator, there was literally nothing inside except the two Snickers' bars and a bottle of lemonade. I went to the shop and bought you everything you need, from meat and milk products to organic juices and sweets. Now I know why you're so skinny - you live on one Snickers bar and several glasses of lemonade a day! Now you won't be able to make excuses for being overly skinny when I filled your refrigerator up. I made you omelette with cherry tomatoes, bacon, feta cheese and Mediterranean spices, I hope you'll like it.
See you tomorrow at work.

Sincerely,
Your boyfriend ·

The note made Seokjin smile from ear to ear. He lifted the cover from the frying pan and felt a beautiful smell. The dish was still warm. He really was hungry, since he was having just one meal a day for almost ten days.

He's such a sweetheart. - Seokjin thought while diving his head into the frying pan.

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[Next chapter's coming tomorrow]