Thank You, Stranger. || Namjin ✓

17.

It's been four weeks since the day when Namjoon stayed over at Jin's. They were working together as usual, but this morning was slightly different than usual.

Seokjin and Namjoon's relationship got a little colder. Seokjin wasn't smiling as before and Namjoon noticed it. He felt like he's been avoiding the topic that was related to Seokjin's emotional state of being.

"Hey..", Namjoon said standing in the bar while cleaning the sink,"I'd like to talk to you about something."
"About what?" - Seokjin asked halfhearted.                 "About you emotional state.. I've noticed you haven't been in the mood these days."                        
Seokjin frowned his eyebrows and looked at the ground while holding the mop.       "Great that you noticed..."

Namjoon felt the guilt and moved his sight away from Seokjin. He didn't know what to say, so he just kept silent.

They didn't mention the topic throughout their shift, but both of them were thinking about the problem, but didn't want the other to notice.

Two older men wanted to drink a latte and Seokjin went to the bar and told Namjoon.     "I think we ran out of milk. Can you get me one?" - Namjoon said and put the key of the stockroom in Seokjin's hand.                                                       "I'll get it." - Seokjin went to the stockroom and took one pack.                                                       But I'm sure I saw one package of milk under the bar about an hour ago. - Seokjin was thinking to himself while kneeling down and grabbing a milk from a box.

Just like that one time, he felt someone's hand on his shoulder. He just sighed and turned around. It was Namjoon. Namjoon grabbed Seokjin's back and pulled him closer. He gave him a very passionate kiss that lasted for fifteen seconds.

Seokjin got a little shocked cuz he wasn't used of being kissed at work, so he impulsively pushed Namjoon away.                                                       "Why are you kissing me? I told you that's not a good idea to do at work!" - Seokjin sounded angry.       "Why are you so cold to me? It hurts a lot.." - Namjoon's eyes got a little watery.

Seokjin was just staring at him still having that glum look on his face.                                         "We really need to talk about everything.", Namjoon was trying to hold his tears from falling,"Seeing you like that breaks my heart in pieces.." 

"I know..", Seokjin put his head down and felt the pain Namjoon was experiencing,"I told you we will talk about it after the shift's done. And now please wipe those tears off and make those two lattes." 

Seokjin went outside first and after about twenty seconds later, Namjoon went out and locked the stockroom's door. Namjoon got inside the bar and stared making coffees while Seokjin was serving a new customer.

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They finished their shift and went outside the cafe. Namjoon asked Jin if he wanted to go to his house and stay over. Seokjin was not in his element, but he knew deep inside they had to talk about a lot of things, because that was essential for their future relation. 

The boys sat on Namjoon's motorbike and he started riding towards his home. As usual, Namjoon only had one helmet, which he of course gave to Seokjin.

Namjoon parked the motorbike in his backyard and unlocked the front door of his house. They went inside and both of them put their sneakers off. 

Seokjin already started to feel anxiety. He knew exactly what Namjoon was going to ask him cuz that was a question to which he never got an answer. Namjoon filled two cups with coffee and gave the one that was pink to Seokjin.

"Thank you.." - Seokjin smiled, but right after put his sight to the ground and sighed. Namjoon squeezed his cup harder and gulped. 

"I know you're not in the mood right now, but both of us know we need to talk about certain things.", Namjoon was talking with a seriousness in his voice. Seokjin was listening what Namjoon had to say and kept silent,"I noticed you've been distancing with me recently and that makes me very sad."

Namjoon stopped for a second because the topic was sensitive to him. It was for the both. "I don't want your feeling for me to fade away. I know some things do hunt you, but that's not the reason to..."

"I was raped!" - Seokjin shouted. Namjoon felt like someone slapped him. He stopped talking and fixed Seokjin's eyes with his. There was a deadly silence in the room.

They stayed that way for the next several minutes until Namjoon got out from the state of shock and got enough strength to say anything. 

"Y- you were..." - Namjoon couldn't even say that word. He couldn't believe Seokjin's words. "Yes, Namjoon.... I was raped." - Seokjin was crushed. He wasn't feeling the emotional pain only, but after saying those words his body literally stared shaking and he felt like throwing up.

"How?... When?... BY WHOM?!" - Namjoon stood up from the couch still not moving his sight of Seokjin. Seokjin didn't have enough energy to talk about the details, so he just kept being silent.

Namjoon got mad cuz Seokjin refused to answer any of his questions, so he grabbed Seokjin by the collar and raised him up.

"Seokjin, tell me! You have to tell me what happened!" - Namjoon was losing his mind. Anger and the feeling of guilt overflown his body.

Seokjin was still being silent. Even if he wanted to say something, he didn't know where to start or how to explain the whole situation. The feeling of shame made his vocal cords paralyzed. 

Namjoon lost his shit and pushed Seokjin on the floor. Seokjin fell inconvenient and hurt his head a bit. Namjoon was walking around the room distraught with his hands in his hair. He didn't know what to do or say. 

Seokjin pulled himself up and got into a sitting position. Namjoon calmed down a bit and sat back on the couch. 

"Why... Why haven't you told me earlier?", Namjoon's eyes were full of tears,"Maybe I could've helped you somehow.."

"Namjoon...", Seokjin sat next to the crying boy and took his hand,"That happened before I met you. There was nothing that could be done at that moment... I was drunk and they took advantage of my body."

"Who "they"?" - Namjoon looked Seokjin in the eyes. Seokjin was thinking whether to tell him or not.

He's emotionally crushed. He's going through what I was going the day when it happened. He's not ready to hear the answer. - Seokjin thought.

"I don't know...", Seokjin looked down cuz it was hard for him to lie about such a topic, but he knew that was the best current solution,"They had bandanas on and I was really drunk, I can't really remember much..." 

Namjoon put his elbows on the knees and put his hands under the chin. "Ok...", Namjoon was looking at one dot on the wall while thinking,"I'm gonna find them and kill them."
"Namjoon..." - Seokjin's tears started falling unwillingly. 

The whole situation got him mixed feelings. He was happy Namjoon was unconditionally ready to hurt anyone who hurt his boyfriend, but also felt a large guilt because he made one more person suffer because of something no one could stop. 

Seokjin just hugged Namjoon and Namjoon hugged him back. They stayed in that position for a while.

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