Make Me

Chapter 7

Ava's POV

It's Monday. I don't want to be here after the little encounter I had with Lilly. She was being completely stubborn about what we were talking about and I deserve to have an apology. But hopefully I won't see her. I just kind of want to get through the day and go home.

My thoughts were interrupted by a familiar face. Cameron. I should go talk to him. No I demand to talk to him. He has been an ass to me and I am determined to get answers.

"Cameron!" I say trying to get his attention. For a moment I see a smile spreading from ear to ear. It reminds me of the Cameron I have always loved, until he comes face to face with me. His eyes fill with sorrow and gloom. What did I do?

Cameron slowly steps backwards. And I could've sworn I saw a tear in his eye. He finally turns and tries to leave.

"Cameron no, you aren't leaving!" I say while he stops cold in his track. "You have been ignoring me for the past week now and I can't stand it. I love seeing your smile and the way you are always in a great mood. Why aren't you like that now?" I ask tears slowly running down my cheeks.

"I won't be able to protect you." Cameron says still standing with his back facing me.

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It has been three weeks. I didn't think I would have been this depressed. Having a feeling of loneliness buried in my chest.

I can't find one single part, buried deep in my heart, of joy. I can't tell my parents why I am like this. It's because of some boy. They would be ashamed.

The only problem I have with any of this is the word why. Why did he say what he said? Why did he just forget about me all of the sudden? Why would he do this to me? And that's the problem, I don't know.

I though we were fine. I loved spending time with him. I loved seeing his straight teeth every day. He made my day better just by doing the littlest things. Holding my hand, giving me a kiss on the cheek, saying words that probably were the smallest thing in the world to him, but to me it was better than anything I could have asked for. He made me feel beautiful. I was a diamond. Now I am dust.

The sad thing is, I was falling hard. I couldn't help falling. He was special to me, and I felt like I knew him before I even knew him. Like we were some how connected before we ever met.

"When one thing dies, it means a new thing will bloom into something beautiful." He would say. Those little quotes made my heart flutter. He didn't admit it to anyone, but he was amazingly talented at poetry. He wouldn't tell anyone because he thought people would give him a new reputation. To be honest I like the poet Cameron better.

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I can't keep sitting at home. I have to get up. I refuse to have some boy who doesn't care about me take over my entire life.

I have bigger things to worry about. My grades, college, everything. This is not half as important as me getting into a great college and being the woman I was determined to be.

I decided to dress up for school. If Cameron isn't mine anymore, why not make myself useful and show everyone how a boy can't control my life. And why not break a few boys hearts.

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I'm at the entrance to the school. I'm a little nervous considering I haven't been to school in a week. But I'm ready. I'm ready to be confident and tell everyone that no one gets in my way or I will beat their ass.

I don't look at anyone, and try not paying attention to my heart beating 50 times per second.

What if I see him? I would be broken.

I hear one boy say "whoa is that Ava?" And another say "holy- oh my god, she's hot now and single. Heard Cameron dumped her. I'll try getting that."

When I heard his name, I felt three feelings.

One, the feeling of hate. How I never wanted to see him again. I wanted him to be out of my life forever.

Two, depression. The state I was in for the last week. How I just wanted to cry for hours. The tears forming every time I would think about what I had done to make him leave me.

Three, love. When I heard his name, my heart fluttered. The way I wanted to kiss his lips every time I saw him. At one moment, I didn't care that he broke my heart. I just wanted him to hold me.

But I returned to reality.

That's when I see the boy who made me feel those ways.

Tears start to form in my eyes. I don't think I can do this. Seeing him. He finally sees me. He has sadness covered in his face. It looks as though he has been crying before I saw him.

I have a sharp feeling that I should go comfort him. But no, I can't because he is the one who started this. I will not let him get to me.

He starts coming towards me. No I have to get away from here.

"Ava.." He tries to say, but I am already walking toward the exit.

"Ava please let me explain." He says, but I will not let him get near me.

"Ava wait." I feel his grip on my arm. "What Cameron?! What could you possibly say to fix this?!" I asked tears spilling out of my eyes.

"I love you.."

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SORRY THIS TOOK LIKE 50 YEARS TO WRITE I WAS ON VACATION AND I WROTE A SHORT CAPTER LIKE ALL OF THEM AND I WILL START WRITING THEM LONGER !! Ily