My Wings

Chapter 7

The sun was beaming hot on my, already sweating skin. 

That was one of the worst dreams yet. The other ones were usually just images or visions something quick, I never got to finish any of the other ones because Soda usually always wakes me up. 

This dream was different, it was more dreadful, more painful. It was more like a memory, like it actually happened, as if that was the reality. My father, he was talking to me, causing paranoia to creep in. He was admitting all of my worst fears.

The thought of Soda leaving me, never crossed my mined twice. But now that it has been thrown in the face that it was possible... I'm begging to freak out. We're going to school soon, and iv seen enough movies to know what the hell happens there. I was excited fro school, but now that im not so sure. Trust me i would do anything to be a normal teenager but not at the cost of loosing Soda. Hes all i have, I wouldn't be able to bare it.

I quickly pick my self up off the bed and rush quietly over to Soda's room. I open his door very slowly. I stop my actions of attempting to wake him up once iv i caught a glimpse of something, something i havnt seen in a long time. Soda sleeping so peacefully.

For 2 years now, soda always slept on his back, with one hand on his stomach and the other over the covers. That's how he went to sleep and that's how he woke up. My father had a clever little nickname for him. Pony. Funny isn't it? how pony boy happens to be another character in my mothers favorite novel. He called him pony because he always assumed he was acting gay. When me and Soda were kids, We would play with my barbie dolls. We didn't have much friends so we kept each other company. My father always saw the 'Girly' side in Soda. He concluded that Soda was a woos, that he didn't know how to be a real man, and he were to grow up a wimp.

But my father could not be more wrong. As much as Soda tried to show it, my father never saw the true man in him. He never saw what i saw. He was to blinded by the alcohol to see that his son was the true man of the house.

He helped around the house when my mother got ill. He would always stand guard for me when i was getting a beating. He would only play barbie with me because no one else would, and he had pitty for me. He would always do the shopping, and one time he actually got a summer job. And on top of all of that, He still managed to keep his grades up, then tutor me. There is'nt enough booze in the world to not see the man in Soda.

Soda was resting on his stomach with his arms under the pillow, hugging it. He has one leg up to his sides and the other stretched out. I couldn't dare and wake him up. He looks so comfortable and full of peace. So i just lay down next to him and wait till sleep takes over.

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Sunday was spent organizing binders, notebooks, book bags, all that stuff. We were acting like little pre-K kids getting ready for school. 

I was sort of freaking out for school tomorrow while Soda Cool Boy here is as chill as ice, acting like he's done this a thousand time, when he knows damn well he has as little school experience as i do. 

Marebelle assures us that we will be fine and make tons of friends. I'm not worried about the friends, I'm worried about my classes. I have top get all A's in everything if i want to get a scholarship to college. We all know that i cant afford school, Or life so i have to work my best in getting a successful future.

Soda wont stop calling me a nerd or geek, which i found pretty amusing as how Soda tries and acts like a regular ignorant twin brother.

We all get our night sleep for the big day tomorrow. And i am beyond anxious.

-Okay so this chapter is short and i haven't updated in long so don't hate me :P..... Okay so even though i barley have any readers but it would mean a wholes lots to me if i get votes and comments. If you don't want to vote, that's okay too. But comments are strongly requested. I want to know what you feathers think of this book so far. I'm open to suggestions or anything really. LOST OF LOVE-

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