Master of Death

Chapter 7- An Inside Man

An Inside Man

Tears show no weakness, only compassion.

Thanatos kisses the palm of my hand and loops something around it, which judging by the feel and weight, is a bracelet similar to the one on my other wrist. Then he surprises me further by laying his chilled lips on the amulet resting on my chest, causing it to disappear. I personally really liked that necklace, but anything else given to me by Thanatos is equally as precious.

Somehow the desire to see the true face of the god who has so rapidly captured my affections, outweighs the fear of that god growing to despise me. I hesitantly lift my eyelids to see the most handsome face to ever grace my line of sight, which is covered in black markings unlike anything I have seen in my lifetime. As I expected, Thanatos is simply beautiful like them all, but even so he is still young and surreally attractive. He's mesmerizing, but he seems to wear a bittersweet expression.

"I wonder if I can be as cruel as you," I whisper with some form of curiosity.

That catches his attention, and he meets my gaze with conflicted eyes. It only takes a moment for them to change direction and become soft. Almost apologetic, really. I better make the most of this brief fragment of my life, for it will soon come to a painful end. Thanatos disregards that I have now seen his face, and instead melts his lips with mine. I can't say I have ever been this happy in my entire life. It is strange though, because he makes me just as sad. Since I do not want him to pull himself away for as long as possible, I only touch the tips of my fingers to his stomach while his hand continuously caresses my face along with his lips. He's cold, but I can make up for that.

Just as I thought, he realizes what he is doing and flies to his feet a metre away with his back to me. It hurts when he does that. I all of a sudden feel hollow again when he moves away from me. Somehow that pain causes me to stare up at the ceiling with a blank expression and tears falling down to my ears. I feel even colder without him.

"I will go investigate what we must do while undercover here. Feel free to do as you please until I return," he says formally.

I can't find my voice to respond, only close my eyes and curl up on my side a bit. I find it too difficult to fully turn my back in Thanatos, but it seems he has no trouble leaving me alone in here. I pout where I am in silence even after he leaves.

"My lady... Why are you so sad?" one of my servants asks quietly, not intending to upset me further.

I sniffle a bit and return to laying flat, covering my eyes with the back of my hand. "No reason worth mentioning. Contained emotions make for a more powerful person, right?"

"Not always... You can be just as strong... If you are happy or have something to fight for... Miss... You are not as strong when you are sad..."

It's probably right. I am a wreck when I'm sad, not to mention just that much more foolish. "I know that, but I cannot control my sadness on my own." I then sigh because it's business as usual again. "Could I send two of you out to spy for me?"

"Of course.... What is it you require?"

"I need one person to keep an eye on the events in this city, as well as pay special attention to the soldiers. I then need someone else to look out for anything happening outside the city, even as far as the emperor's palace. I need to know what is going on at all times, especially when Thanatos intends to only tell me the minimal,"

"As you wish. When would you like us to report back to you?"

"If there are any strange developments, or anything out of the ordinary for that matter. I do not want anything overlooked. In order to survive, I must be informed of anything and everything,"