Saddness Is The Key To Happiness :,)

am i good enough for anyone?

Am i good enough for anyone?

Doesnt feel like it

People look down on me

Because i help a disabled girl read and eat

Because i stick up for the people who deserve it

I dont need friends because knowing im making at least one person happy because of my kindness

Im kind because i want to be. Not because i have to be

Most people say "goodie too- shoes" i ignore them

Doesnt mean i feel guilty for something that isnt true

It hurts it really does

I reacently stopped scratching because i tuned them out

Im not afriad to say that i self harmed because i thought that it was what i had to do

You recently left me and i didnt understand why

I do now

Its because im not good enough

Because maybe you dont want little acts of kindness in your life

I would i would want someone to get me little gifts and hug me tight when i cry

Thats not gonna happen

Am i good enough for someone?

I just wanted to say please dont self harm i found out the hard way that it will only get worse if you think its gonna get worse. It will get better. No matter what happens or what people say it isnt the answer. Harming yourself because you think its what you need to its not so dont. Dont get trapped in the spiral like i did. Sorry for that downer but i really want people to understand that cutting and harming ones self is dangerous and it could get worse and worse. I know it feels like it releases pain but in actual fact it makes more pain. You are just numb to feeling it because you dont want to feel it. The pain was what made me stop. The pain suddenly hit me like rock and it made me realise that it isnt the answer. The scars wont ever leave you and you will always be reminded of it. Think about yourself the way you want to be thought about. There opinions dont matter. What ever you are going through right now i advise you to speak to an adult or someone you trust. Find something that makes you feel happy. You are loveable, good-hearted, kind, creative, silly, lovely.. dont listen to the demon side of your head listen to the angel..

I love you all my pork cutlet bowls

~ Beth xx ❤❤