The darkness is the peice of life that makes me feel like im drowning.
Sadness is the peice of life that makes me feel like im sleeping
Anxiety is the piece of life that makes me feel like i shouldnt talk to you
My life is a disaster but i would rather it was a disaster because it will always come to an end
It wont just end it will still exsist because the people i know will keep it alive
They will make it as if im still there quietly thinking about the person who is not thinking about me
Wondering
Trying so hard not to cry because im not the person i want to be
Im the person i was made to be
Even if i dont like that
I have learnt that anxeity tells me not to talk to you
To stay in place and not put my hand up to ask questions
Anxeity made me do this because i wanted to do something so bad
One day i will leave and not many people will care
I wont see half of you after school
Next year
In ten years you will all be a distant memory that i want to remember but i will get blurrs even if i dont want them to be.
Even if i want to think of you
I cant because my mind wont work like that
My mind brings me reasons not to talk to you but my anxeity told me that if i do this i will mess up and embarrass my self more and more
My anxeity will tell me that my friends hate me that everyone hates me when deep down i know thats not true
But i listen to that thought and i keep hearing it
I keep being told that im not good enough by myself and all i get is no sleep because im thinking about all of those things i shouldnt
The bad things
The bad times
The bad everything
I have been taught that i need to like someone to fit in
I need to have friends even if they are fake
I need to be made up
I need to be pieced together by others before i can reach for a piece myself
Before i can become good enough to talk to you
My anxeity can be small then it can be gient and its all i can see
Taller than me
Towering over me like a cloud that wont leave because a storm is on its way
I regret not saying something then i worry
I tell myself it would be better if i kept my mouth shut and just agreed
I tell myself i should just keep quiet
Cause if i do it will work and i wont be annoying
But the darkness is what makes me feel like im drowning.
Saddness makes me feel like im sleeping
Anxeity makes me feel like i shouldnt talk to you
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Saddness Is The Key To Happiness :,)
PoetryThese are original poems that I have come up with. I want you to read them because you are my inspiration. I know the persons most of these are intended for wont see them but a glimmer of hope makes it feel like they will - Love you all my pork cu...
