Pétales De Mort (JiKook)

His POV: Lies

His POV: Lies

The sound of endless melody rung into my ears. I fucked up don't I? I chuckled at myself as I look at my side. Its empty, the bed is half-empty. Isn't this what I wanted?

I sigh as I close my eyes. Memories of Jimin hyung and I came flashing back. From when I saw him on the other side of the river crying, to him fainting near the lake because of me.

"Its all my fault I deserve it" I mumbled as I hug the pillow next to me. Tears started to fall as I burried my face to the pillow.

"Why does it hurts so bad?" I mumbled as I hug the pillow tighter. Memories kept flashing back and forth, even the most painful ones.

"I'll pay for your surgery"

"I'll love you till the end"

"I can't believe you already found someone new quickly"

"Please don't stop loving me"

"And here we are so worried about you, yet you are already around with some guys like a slut"

"I'm so worried hyung, come back to me please"

"Fine by me!"

"Please don't"

Why can't I just say what I wanted to say? I let go of the pillow as I sat up. I was greeted by a mirror. I'm a mess. My eyes are red and filled with tears along with dark lines underneath it. My clothes are all wrinkly--

"Jungkook?" Someone said. I look at the doorway and saw Taehyung.

"Yes hyung?" I asks.

"Stop hurting yourself" Taehyung said as he entered my room.

"I'm not hurting myself" I said.

"Jimin will forget about you soon, so then we can be together" Taehyung said as he gave me a side-hug.

"Hmm" I just said.

"You are too perfect for Jimin, but you are just right for me" Taehyung said as he wipes my tears with a small towel.

"Now come on and take a shower, you look like shit right now, and I don't want my baby to look ugly" Taehyung said as he gave my cheeks a squeeze. I just nod as he left my room.

I think its the other way. Jimin hyung is too perfect for me. Jimin hyung is the definition of perfection, and I am nothing. I'm the complete opposite of perfection. Imperfection.

"Is this the right thing?" I mumbled to myself as I got up and went to the restroom.

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Today's the day. I've been anxious since 4 am. I can't sleep. My head hurts. My eyes hurt. My heart aches. I don't know what to do. I covered my face with my hands as I try to calm down. Jimin hyung's surgery will be at 5:13 pm. It's currently 4:31 pm.

"Jungkook? Are you there?" Someone knocks. I quickly got up and hurried at the front door. I opened it.

"Wow man you really fuck up" Yoongi hyung said as I just let him in.