// After The Storm // {THE 1975} {{MATTY HEALY FANFICTION}}

2. I know it's me thats supposed to love you

Chapter 2
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As soon as I opened the door I threw myself at Matty. I missed him so much, especially drunk Matty. They say that when you're drunk you don't think straight but Matty is the most extreme exception. When he's drunk we'd alway have the most heartfelt conversations and I'd realise just how fascinating he really is, the way he speaks and how clever and philosophical he is even though he hardly ever attended school.

Some conversations with Matty scare me at times, they make me feel things I don't understand. I do have feelings for Matty, I know that. I've known ever since we hooked up last year but I was seeing John then, and still am. John's good for me, he's what I need and Adam agrees, whereas I'm sure he wouldn't agree with me and Matty, so it could never happen.
But boy was it great!

Anyway, Matty would never feel the same, he only see's me as a little sister, it could never work. I see the way he looks at me, the way you look at family, I guess that's all we will ever be. He's always just been that goofy big brother.

He was always around our house when I was little and as I grew up it just became normal to have him around. I now know that it was because of his home situations. Only now I know how much shit he went through. Only now do I understand it all.
Understand why he's so sheltered, so .... broken.

Sometimes I think that that's why I like him so much, I see him as my personal project. Although he's older than me and believes that he should be the one protecting me, I know that it's my job, my responsibility to fix him.
My unfinished project.
To make Matthew Timothy Healy appreciate life and women, to make him realise he deserves just as much happiness as anybody else, to make Matty Healy capable of love.

First task is solving his stubborn attitude to opening up to people, to letting them in. There's only one solution to that problem ALCOHOL!

So my plan begins;
"Matty....." I whine in a voice clearly showing I want something.
"Yes...." he replied imitating me.
"Since I haven't see you all since Christmas and we miss each other ever so much" I continued adding in emphasise where needed, but Adam being the moany pants he is interrupted us.
"Just get to the point poo-brain"
(Yes, we still call each other names at this age!)

However at this point I crossed the room to lay across Matty and George, only to look up and catch eye contact with a jealous looking John.

QEventually I got to the point of asking Matty to "celebrate the long awaited return of his best friend" with a party,not just any party, a big party. And anybody whose an anybody would jump at the chance of going to one of George and Matty's parties.

Thankfully, he argreed because, as he puts it, " we don't often get many reason to celebrate, but I suppose we have a pretty great one." To which I blushed and all the lads laughed at. How can he say things like that and not expect me to feel for him the way I do.

After hours of the boys picking on me and playing stupid pranks I had realised that Matty hadn't been out for a smoke since I had arrived. so I decided I'd ask Adam whilst we were in the kitchen making tea for everybody.
" Hey Adz?"
"What's up shit-face?"
" a) stop with the insults, You've just got me back and if you don't stop I'll leave again" I added in such a moody way " and b) what's going on with Matty?"
His face crumpled as he leant away from me, his eyes glazing over. an expression I knew all too well.
My big brother was about to lie to me....

A/N
Sorry I know these are really annoying but a) thank you all for reading you have no idea how much it means to be and b) I'm so sorry I haven't updated sooner I had to revise for my Italian GCSE which I finished today so, my reward was updating! haha.
Hope you all enjoyed it and next part should be up soon!