Rejected but I am loving it. (Unedited But Completed)

Chapter 5: A Perfect Life (Jason Blake Merez POV)

AN: Jason's POV will start from the point when it was his birthday. Back to story...

I have been trained to be Alpha since I was ten. I guess when a guy knows he is going to lead a pack once he is seventeen and finds his mate. It gets to his head and he turns cocky, arrogant, or case status conscious also. Although, I can only speak for myself, I became all of those things. All because of the fact that I let the power of becoming an Alpha get into my head; I defied the fates by rejecting what I should have cherished, my mate. My mate was that member of the pack whom everyone hated, bullied and abused. She was basically the pack's maid. I could have used my Alpha command to stop all of that but, well you could call me a coward. I rejected my mate, Mariah, sister to my Beta, Martin. What shocked and made me lose half of the respect I had for my beta and best friend was that he went along with pack and bullied and abused his own sister. I did not take part in any of that and neither did condone what they were doing but I did not even try to put a stop to it. It was my seventeen birthday and as usual Mariah was ordered to do it. It was well-planned, when she came to give me gift, our hands touched and electricity shot through both of us. She approached me and said, "Happy Birthday! Hope you have a great day," when she handed me the present and when our hands touched electric currents shot through us.

I she whispered, "You are my mate." Well, me being a reputation conscious guy, caused me to reject her, I said, "No, you can't be my mate, my mate will be someone who is respected by the pack and not someone who is treated like trash and considered a weakling by the pack. I don't want you by my side, I will find someone who is respected and is considered strong by the pack. So, I Jason Merez soon-to-be Alpha of the Bloodred pack rejects you as my soul mate." Through the mind link I called her to my room that same minute saying I wanted to confess something. She came to my room and I said that, "I hope you can find someone who gives the contentment and the happiness in life that I cannot give you. Hope you can find it in your heart as the time passes to forgive me and your brother because I know he is grieving from the death of your parents but deep down he loves you as sister and well about me, I already love you as mate and as a friend but I can't stand what the pack members are doing to you and what they would've done to you if I would've accepted you as my mate.

So I am apologizing with the bottom of my heart and wishing that in the future you'd find someone who deserves you because I certainly don't . I will help through your first shift so that you don't have to go through any more pain than you already have and then I suggest you should leave this pack an d find a new one so that you have to go through the pain of seeing your mate with someone else not only that facing the insult and mockery of the pack members." After hearing what he had to say, I was actually surprised because I thought he act like a cocky jerk considering he is very reputation conscious, although he is a very kind-hearted person but in front of his friends he is the completely different but oh well. I could feel my wolf surfacing because he felt the pain she was feeling due to the beginning of the shifting process. I lifted her in my arms and I took her to the forest. I then placed her on the rocky ground, her bones reshaping themselves into a different shape and I saw fur sprouting from her body.

She had just gone through her first shift and I was with my mate was who I had just rejected few minutes back. I said in her head through the mind link, "Hey, Mariah can you hear me?" She replied, "Yeah Jason I can and thanks for helping through my shift and I am taking up your offer on leaving the pack but I want to officially in front of the pack tomorrow first thing in the morning announce that I am leaving but we shall not talk about being mates in front of the pack than we already have. We will not reveal this whole thing that happened between us to your parents or my brother, because I don't want them think badly of you or me." In reply I said that, "I am glad you decided on leaving the pack and you are welcome and are allowed to cross or enter the territory of this pack. Don't forget this that in my eyes you're not weak, ugly, waste space or undeserving like the pack members think of you to be in fact you are the most endearing and beautiful person, on the outside and on the inside. I wish you the very best in life."

"Jason I think we should go back but separately.""I think you are right Mariah."" Goodnight Jason and I love you always, hoping we shall meet in the future." "Goodnight Mariah, I love you too and yes I too hope that we meet in the future but under better circumstances," I just nodded. After this exchange we went back to the pack house but separately as planned. I felt slightly less guilty after this conversation that we had in the forest. When Martin went to Mariah's room, he screamed, "Mariah, where are you?"I rushed to Mariah's room to find the closet open and Martin on the floor crying his eyes out. He said, "I am sorry I did all that to you little sister, please come back, please forgive me!" I suddenly felt an excruciating pain in my heart. I realized that this pain can only be felt by a werewolf when the mate is dead or finds a second mate-human or werewolf- and mates. Finding a second mate is even more seldom than rejection. I guess then there was only one answer to my pain. My mate is now no longer alive; she might have been killed by rogues or one of the surrounding packs.CLIFFHANGER