Sana Ikaw Na [COMPLETED]

Kabanata 9

Kabanata 9

Rumors

It was actually the least question that I wanted to answer right now. Necessary ba talagang itanong niya pa iyon?

"Huh? What do you mean by that?" it was the only answer I can give. He literally made my knees shaking even though we're just seating. Ang tambol ng puso ko ay walang tigil din. I didn't know that I can feel this moment ever.

It was actually good

"Uhm.. I'm just asking.. kasi ano.. Uhm.. Pwede ba manligaw?" tanong niya habang nakatingin ng diretso sa mata ko

I should've expected this but it still feels surreal

Manliligaw sa akin? It wasn't like a secret that I really do have a lot of suitors even during elementary. It may be little crushes but those boys were really vocal on how they feel. My parents are aware of it. Even mommy was proud because she would always say "Nagmana ka talaga sa akin baby!" I really can't believe it. My mom's selling me out

I turned everyone down, of course why wouldn't I? I'm too young for that. Lahat sila ay basted pero bakit ang hirap bastedin ni Zeijan? I just don't have the heart to turn him down.

But who am I kidding? Gusto ko rin naman siya and it scares me because it's all a first for me. He's my first love, I think. Am I even ready to risk it?

Another problem is my parents. Alam ko namang aware sila na maraming manliligaw sa akin eventually but they are keen on reminding me na marami pa akong makilala. I should enjoy life and not chase love. Dadating din daw yun if it was really meant for me.

I'm really torn.

God.

"Hmmm. Uhmm. S-siguro? I don't know," that was the safest answer I could give. I wanted to say yes badly, but I have to considerate other things too.

"Look Brie, it's not what you think. Hihintayin ko naman kung kailan ready ka na. It's just I wanted to ask properly. Liligawan ko rin muna sila Tito't Tita bago ikaw," sabi niya like he's telling me that he's really serious with this.

Natakot ako bigla sa sinabi niya. Liligawan niya sila mommy? I'm serious that will be a first na may lalaking liligawan ang parents ko. Ni hindi ko pa nga sinasabi kay Mommy ang tungkol dito. And the thought of saying this? I'm sure she'll be hysterical habang magiging referee na naman si Dad. Napailing na lang ako sa naiisip ko,

Nagdaan ang mga araw. Halos araw-araw nandito si Zeijan at nagbibigay ng kung ano-ano. I'm starting to believe that he's the most generous man I've met so far.

Seriously, from my cravings, to bringing wine for my Dad on a Saturday dinner when he was invited once. Take note that he even looked for my dad's favorite wine. He even brought flowers for mom when he was invited again because they closed a major investment in the company. As for me? He never fails to give me flowers, chocolates, and anything he thinks.

Until one day, it came to the real point and agenda when he asked my parents if he can court me. Akala ko ay nanliligaw na siya sa mga ginagawa niya pero hindi pa pala iyon.

Believe me or not, I was shocked to know that my parents weren't even against the idea of it. Mukhang masyadong nakuha ni Zeijan ang loob nila, wala na ata akong kawala! They're even closer than they were with me. He's even invited in all the events that we celebrate. Minsan nga nakakainggit na eh, parang si Zeijan na yung anak nila imbes na ako.

Of course, Tamara will really be furious kung hindi siya updated sa mga kaganapan ko sa buhay kaya naman lagi siyang una sa mga nangyayari. She's the only person I'm comfortable on sharing things about this because I'm naive and innocent according to her. That girl!

Nung nalaman niya nga ang mga ginawa ni Kevin for our parents, hindi siya makapaniwala na may ganung nangyari at pumayag ang parents ko dahil alam naman niya na strikto nga ang parents ko pagdating sa ganyang usapan. And her being Tamara, inaway niya si Aldrich dahil bakit hindi daw ganun ang ginawa nito sa parents niya? Seriously, sobrang bilis ng pacing nilang dalawa. I can't keep up!

Kumalat na rin sa buong campus ang tungkol sa amin ni Zeijan. Kaya hayun at kapag magkasama kami ay 'di magkamayaw ang tilian sa campus. We aren't even together at that time. Ano pa bang mag-iiba kapag nagpalit kami ng status from single to in a relationship?

"Omg. Kailan mo siya sasagutin?"

"Alam mo bagay na bagay kayo!"

"Sana seryoso siya sayo. Sayang naman kung pinaglalaruan ka lang niya."

"Uy. Ang sweet!"

Araw araw ko 'yan naririnig. Pero ang pinakamasakit yata na narinig ko nung isang araw ay ang usapan ng mga kabatchmate ko,

"Balita ko, nililigawan daw ni Zeijan si Brie ah," sabi ni Kelly, classmate ko

"Oo nga daw," sabi nung dalawa pang babae, nagkibit-balikat lang sila

"Alam naman natin siguro ang ugali ni Zeijan diba? Napaka playboy niya. Paano kapag trip lang pala niya si Brianna? Sobrang nakakaawa siya 'pag nagkataon. Baka masaktan lang siya ng sobra. Sabi pa naman niya sa akin na hindi pa siya nagkakaboyfriend ever since. This means na wala pa siyang experience sa mga panloloko at panlilinlang ng mga lalaki," dire-diretsong banggit ni Kelly

Nang narinig ko 'yun ay biglang nanghina ang sistema ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako umiyak pero parang hindi ako handang tanggapin yung mga narinig ko. Sigurado nga akong hindi ko kakayanin iyon kung sakaling totoo ang mga sinabi nila.

Napaisip tuloy ako kung mali bang minadali ko ang lahat? That I did go that far to know him better before rushing things like this? Ni hindi kami dumaan sa magkakilanlan ng mga favorites ko, even his birthday ay hindi ko pa alam.

I shrugged the idea kasi magdadalawang buwan na siyang nanliligaw at wala naman akong napapansing iba. Pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasang isipin na baka totoo. And honestly, it scares me. I don't think I can handle a heart break,

Does loving someone can even hurt this way?