the girl in class

The pain

The  girl woke up to her alarm ringing in her ear. But she turned it off and stayed in bed so she didn't go to school that day. She hated school because of that stupid popular boy, she thought he loved her but of course that shit was a lie. He only used her for sex then told everyone that she was a slut even though she just sleep with him and no one else. But  no one but her friends believe that. The girl shakes the thought out of her head and walks downstairs, that's when she see her mother on the couch, the girl walked over to her mom and smelled the alcohol on her breathe, the girl grabbed a blanket on a near by chair and covered up her mom.

" even though you hate me i will still be there for you " the girl whispered so she didn't wake up her mom

 Then walks out of the door with phone and head phones in hand. She puts the head phones in her ears and listens to her favorite song " let down" and walks to her favorite spot the park. That is the place her dad took her when she was younger before he passed away from a overdose one night. 

                ~ flash back ~ 

" Dad do we really have to go " the little girl wined

" yes little one we do " her dad said 

" but why though " she asked looking up at her father. 

" mommy is probably worried sick about us " the father said laughing 

" yeah she probably is " she laughed as well 

They walk to the car and got in the car and drove home. As they get out of car and open the door and the little girl was shocked her for the rest of her life, her mother was having sex on the couch with another men. Her dad covered her eyes while her mother and the men got dressed and the men walked out of the house with a smile on his face. The girl's dad was so piss because as he uncovered his daughter eyes she saw him make a fist. 

" how the fuck could you do this to us, to her " he said madly 

" because you don't pay any attention to me, it's all about her " she said 

" she is our daughter why would i not give her all of my attention " he yelled 

" because she was a mistake, she was not supposed to happen " she yelled back 

" then why the hell did you give birth to her then, huh " he said  yelled even more 

" because i thought you would pay more attention to me more then ever " she said almost in tears. 

" well you thought wrong, i love my daughter with all my heart and that won't change " he said looking at his daughter with loving eyes. 

" fine then you will sleep on the couch until you learn to show me some attention "  and with that said the mother walked upstairs and slammed the door behind her. 

" is this all my fault daddy " the little girl asked in tears 

" no baby bear it's not how about you and do you want to make dinner with me, to make you feel better  " the father said with a sad smile on his face. 

" yeah that sounds fun " as the little dead girl runs into the kitchen waiting for her father to catch up. 

The father walks into the kitchen to see his little angle smiling from ear to ear.

" so what should we make little one " he asked the small child 

She was thinking for a mins and then she got an idea 

" how about we make your famous cheese noodles " she says 

" alright if you want cheese noodles then cheese noodles you will have "  he says with a smile 

The little girl jumps up and down with excitement 

~ time skip ~ 

When they got done with dinner the little girl yawned and her father told her to go to bed and that is what she did. She ran upstairs to her room got under the covers and fell asleep. But on the other hand her father was really upset over what happened today. He already knew the little  girl's mother was cheating on him and he was thinking about leaving but he couldn't leave his angle behind.  Two months later the pain was getting to much for the little girl's father. He saw his own wife sleep around with  20 men already and he could not take it anymore so one night he wrote a note to his daughter and it said 

" if you find this when you wake up in the morning then i'm dead. It's nothing against you but i can't do it anymore little angle i'm so so sorry  

love always 

father 

He placed it on her nightstand and then looked at the little girl's sleep frame kissed her forehead, then left her room walked to the bathroom looked at a bottle of pills and took them all. He then walked downstairs and covered himself up and fell into a deep sleep and took his last breath that night. The little  girl woke up later that morning wondering why no one woke her up for school, she walked downstairs in her pj's and walked to her dad shook him but it didn't work so she shook him some more. 

" daddy bear wake up i'm late for school " but when that didn't work she started to get worried 

then she remembers the piece of paper on her nightstand so she ran upstairs to her room and read the note she started to cry and ran back downstairs to that is when she understood that she was alone  now with a mother who doesn't care about her. 

                                      ~ flashback over ~ 

The  girl sat on the swings while listening to music and crying. She hates to think about but it can never escape out of her mind and her mother didn't even care. They didn't even have a funeral for him, he was just put in the ground in the grave site and that was it and this is why she has scares on her wrist just from thinking about her father about how he left her alone even though he promise not to.