Forever & Always - (One Direction, Narry)

Chapter 3: It's Only A Little White Lie

[ Harry's POV ]

I feel like a bastard. A sick, rude, dirty bastard. I don't diserve to be on this plane right now. I don't diserve to be sitting here with these four other amazing boys. I don't diserve any of it. I have no idea why the hell I took some of my energy out on Niall, but I did. Now I feel like a stupid little boy with no morals or respect for anyone. I don't even diserve respect from Niall after the way I acted. It's a miracle that he even sat next to me.

Niall won't even make eye contact with me anymore. I miss that cute little tint that always appeared in his bright blue eyes when he looked at me. I miss the way his eyes light up when he's happy. I miss the way they get duller when he's angry, aggitated, or upset. I miss all of that. More importantly, I miss Louis talking to me. We haven't really had a proper conversation since the concert yesterday. That aches me inside.

Zayn and Liam were the only two who really bothered to make an effort to speak to me, look at me, or socialize with me in any way. We talked occasionally when our private jet was nearing takeoff, but now they were asleep, along with Niall, Louis, and Paul. So yes, I am the only one awake.

I didn't feel too comfortable in here. The air is chokingly hot, a light sweat is beaming on my forehead, and I think I might have to throw up. So I got up and left for the back of the cabin. It was really nice in here, too. The A.C. was really good, even though I am burning up, there is a nice kitchen/eating place, Paul had dimmed the lights so the other lads could sleep, and there were nice couches for lounging on, complete with a mini-fridge that was stocked with seasonal fruits, water, gaterade and powerade, Arizonas, contents to make a sandwhich, and much more.

I quickly grabbed a water bottle from the fridge and closed it lightly while trying not to make a sound. No need to wake up the others, right? I plopped my behind onto one of the four couches that sat back here and relaxed my body across it. I could feel a small trickle of sweat run down my forehead, and I swiftly wiped it away with the back of my hand.

I brought the water bottle up to my lips and took a swig. Ahh, refreshing. This is just what I needed. My hand felt down around my back pocket and I grabbed my iPhone and unlocked it. Fourteen new texts, and twelve from Twitter. I replied to every single text, most from my mum and Gemma, then locked my phone back and layed my head against the cool arm-rest of the couch.

I don't know how long I was laying there, but it felt like quite a while. When I checked my phone last, it was 6:14, and now the digital clock that was resting on the table says 8:27. I yawned silently and stretched my hands up to my head, closing my eyes again.

"Haz?"

My eyes shot open and I quickly sat up. I placed the water bottle on the glass coffee table so I wouldn't spill it and looked up to meet the intruder. My breath hitched into my throat, my palms became sweaty and clammy, and I could feel my forehead beaming up again.

"Oh, hey, BooBear."

He smiled a very unlively smile and sat down beside me. He still wasn't making eye contact, but I guess this was good enough. Anything for him. At least we're actually conversing again. I miss his voice. I angled my sweaty body towards him, but he didn't do the same. He just kind of glanced up at me and kept that grim smile on his face.

"Everything okay?" I asked, placing my left hand on his right wrist. I could tell that Louis tensed up a bit, but let me hold him anyway. Sparks of fire shot through my body at our physical contact again, and I loved every second of it.

He shook his head. "I should be asking you that question." His bluish-greenish-grayish eyes finally shot up to meet mine, and I couldn't help but feel a chill. I love his eyes. I love every little bitty thing about him, but his eyes just pop. They're like Niall and I's eyes combined, with a touch of gray. It's beautiful, too. I could stare into them all day if I could... but that would be weird.