What Choice Do I Have?-A Fosters Fanfic

Chapter 8

Jude's POV:

I was in the hospital making sure that all of my broken bones were okay. I was pretty lonely, so I wanted to talk to Callie. They tried calling her in, but once they got to the waiting room she wasn't there. Lena asked Jesus where he was and what happened , so he told her everything except for the Callie and him part. I already knew something was up with them and I happened to overhear the conversation. They were in the hallway from outside my room when they talked. Lena decided to check home so that she could possibly get Callie. I wasn't in any pain at all. I was so numb that I couldn't feel any part of my body.

"Hey honey how are you feeling?" asked Stef.

"I can't really feel anything."

"This is all my fault. This family falling apart is my fault. I can't even do something to help this family. I can't see into the future, so I don't know when you are going to get hurt. I don't watch Brandon, Callie, and Jesus every move. The only one I don't have to worry about right now is Mariana. I'm so sorry Jude."

"Mom it's fine. I am fine. I know how great of a mom and you are too. Everyone in this family loves you. Making mistakes is the best part about life. If you screw up, you only make that mistake once. You learn and improve whatever you did wrong. We all know that it isn't your fault, and you are an amazing mom."

Stef and I became really close after Callie left after the wedding that one time. Lena was always the one to help me with my problems, but Stef made me feel comfortable. I appreciated every single thing she did for me. No mom can compare to Stef.

Lena's POV:

I got to my house, but when I got in I heard extremely loud cries and somebody beating something. I ran upstairs as fast as I could and stopped when I saw Callie screaming and crying while smashing a window.

"Callie calm down. How is this solving anything? It's Brandon isn't it?"

"Lena leave now. This isn't the time."

"You know that the next move you make you will regret forever. Put the bat down and sit on the bed. Why? How is this helping you?"

"You wouldn't get it."

"Honey you know that I understand a lot more then you know. I have been through it all. Trust me. My life hasn't been flowers and rainbows. I had to go through some pretty hard times being biracial and lesbian."

"I know. You told me about Oreos and Klondike bars."

"Well there was that story, but it was about not being like everyone else. Not believing in myself and who I actually was. I don't follow my heart. I do what other people think is 'normal', but there is no normal. It took me a while to figure this out, but what is different is what makes people love you. When you just do what everyone thinks is best, stand up and show them that what is best for them isn't best for you. Show the world that you can be whoever you want without being ashamed. People can say whatever they want, but if you are the only thing they have to talk about, then their life is a lot sadder than yours. We are here for you. We support all of your decisions. Just remember not to put yourself down. Stand tall and no matter what happens you fight. You fight even when it's hard and you just want to give up. There is something that is going to come out that is really good."

"How can you say that? I know you cheated on Stef."

"I know. I thought that I needed that, but doing that only made me feel worse about all that I have tried to overcome. I have tried to stay strong for so long and I got sick of it. I stopped fighting and look where it got me. I am trapped in this world that won't stop bringing me bad luck. I thought that for a little while until I realized that I brought that bad luck on myself. I am messing up my happy life just because I was tired of fighting. You need to learn from my mistake and stand tall."

"It isn't about trying to get Brandon. In a way it is, but it isn't. I was upset about Jude and all that I went through, so I kissed Jesus. Brandon walked in and I saw his eyes fill with tears. I thought he didn't like me, but he needed to tell me something. I totally ruined my chance."

"This is what I am talking about. To me you are saying that you are done fighting. Just because you hit a little bump in the road because you are afraid of what will happen next, you are giving up. Tell him how you really feel."