What Choice Do I Have?-A Fosters Fanfic

Chapter 19

Jude's POV:

Stef and Lena have given me a lot of time to recover from the Vico thing, and way more time to figure out who I am. When I tried on my dad's ex-wives dress, wore the nail polish, and got jealous of Connor for the whole Maddie thing, it was proving to me that I did like Connor. He isn't gay I'm pretty sure, so it's a little awkward around him. We are friends and all, butI found out that Connor's dad isn't okay with him having a gay friend. I have never met Connor's dad, but apparently he is extremely judge mental. He doesn't know anything about my family because they always take his friends away by insulting them so much. He says that its better if they just don't know each other. I still haven't fully forgiven Brandon even though he has no idea what happened between us. I always check on Callie and Mariana to make sure they're okay because of course they're girls. Mariana is having a really hard time because of something. She is always sad and moping around. Stef and Lena are of course always trying to help us, but it's kind of hard. Nobody really gets what we are going through.

"Hey Callie can I talk to you?

"Sure bud what's up?"

"Um is everything okay?"

"With what?"

"Like everything. What happened to Mariana and is Brandon okay? I just feel like I'm not hearing anything that's going on."

"Well, Brandon is remembering little by little which is really exciting for me and I haven't heard from Mariana in a while."

"Well that's good. I also have something else that I just you know um need to get off my chest."

"Jude you sound scared."

"It's not bad, but I think I just need to get it off my chest. I'm not sure, but I think that I'm gay."

"Oh."

"I know that it might be hard to think about right now."

"I get it. No I'm totally fine with that. It's great that you know who you are."

"Wow, why are you taking this so well?"

"How do you want me to take it?"

"That's not what I mean. Whenever I wore nail polish you would freak about me getting teased."

"That was just me being stupid. I should have just let you be who you are because you are so special."

"It means a lot that I could tell you this."

"I have to go meet Brandon. I'll see you later."

Brandon's POV:

I started to play a little bit of piano which is really nice. I've kind of been teaching myself from gaining memory each time I hang with Callie. It's actually really weird the way I've been remembering things. At first it was in order of what happened in my life, but now it's really random. I remembered the kiss and a girl named Sarah and Liam and Wyatt. I have a little memory of Talya, but not much.

"You ready Brandon?"

"What for?"

"I thought maybe we can grab something to eat."

"Oops I just had lunch; maybe something else?"

"Yeah of course. How about we go for a walk on the beach."

"Sounds great."

This time on our walk, we talked about Liam and Sarah and how Liam died. It was kind of confusing because I didn't know much of what happened to Liam or Sarah before. Today, I remembered a little bit about Talya. It's really funny how it's only been a few months and I have remembered so much because of how much time I spend with Callie. Every time I look into her eyes, I see why I used to love her. She teaches me guitar and sings to me this weird song that apparently I sang to her one day. She says that I called it "Callie's Song" or "Outlaws." I like it though. I am so thankful to have her because without her, I would barely remember myself. In order to thank her. I spun her around while she was talking and grabbed her hips.

"I am so happy to have you. I never realized how amazing a person can be when they have gone through all of that. You deserve the best."

Heavily breathing still in my arms she said "That's what you always told me. You always asked where my justice was and that I deserve to be happy."

I kissed her while she kissed right back. Her hands were tangled up in my hair, both of our eyes were closed, and there was no space between our bodies. We made out for like 10 minutes straight until Callie opened her eyes and started to walk away. I just saw a body, but I had no idea who it was. Callie finally said her name and walked closer.

"Mariana? What are you doing here?"

"I just needed some air."

"Well, are you okay? You look like you've been crying."

"Can you just leave me alone? I am just having a really hard time with this situation I'm in."

"How are you going to solve it if you won't talk to anybody about it?"