I Have Answers [CAMREN STORY]

Chapter 1

[POV CAMILA]

Dear notes? (I guess.. since I lost my diary...again..),

It was a hard day again, it started okay and all but it's just the moment I walk off stage, I just finished another set being the supporting act of Bruno Mars' 24K Magic World Tour. People come up to me and tell me:  "Hey you did amazing, I loved Havanna!" "OMG you are great, you really don't need those four girls!"  "What a good decision to go solo!".

I try to smile and thank them for their compliments. But it still hurts like hell. I hate how it went down, I hate the fact that I lost my four best friends.. I know I keep saying all that bullshit about needing it to grow but I don't mean any of it. I just say it to convince myself. To just make it hurt a little less. Because to be honest.. I didn't leave because of that, I would never. I left because I felt like they didn't want me there anymore. I didn't loose those four friends by going solo. I lost them a long time ago...

*1 new email*

"Oh no.. not again.. yep the same anonymous person who has been mailing me the last couple of days.. Maybe I should actually open it and read it.."

*start email*

From: IHavannaAnswers

To: BowPrinses97@gmail.com

Hey Camila,

I heard that you have some questions..

So I thought maybe I should answer some of them for you, you can do with this what you want (if it's writing an other song I want credits tho..) oh and if you have questions back feel free to ask them.

Why did you leave me here to burn?

Why did I leave you there to burn.. well you insisted on staying on the beach while I went back to the hotel room to get the sunscrean so you if you are talking about that I did leave you there to burn... I'm sorry about that.

I'm way too young to be this hurt.

Yeah you are young but to be fair I am not much older and I told you that jumping of that cliff could get you hurt. I even was concerned but you wanted to be all brave and shit so.. I tried stopping you but you didn't really listen.. sorry that it hurted tho..

I feel doomed in hotel rooms.

I asked you many times to come with me and party and hang out but you said you didn't like that and wanted to stay in..or you would go to the hotel early.. not much I could do about that my darling.

Staring straight up at the wall.

Hahah Camila staring 'straight'.. I think we both know there wasn't much 'straight' staring.. Love you tho..

Counting wounds and I am trying to numb them all.

I have nothing funny to say on this one.. I am actually really sorry about how you felt the past years... and I hope that if there is something I would tell me.

Do you care, do you care?

Of course I care.. I think maybe I cared more about you than you know. I actually still care (and think) a lot about you. But yeah I don't want this to get all deep and shit.

Why don't you care?

Well I kinda just told you I do care so yeah..

I gave you all of me.

Well this is not really a question so I can't really answer. Still All of me is a good song.. even though the lyrics are hard to remember.

My blood, my sweat, my heart, and my tears.

Again not a real question and a bit graphic...but yeah your song so your choice of words.

Why don't you care, why don't you care?

As I alreay said.. I do really care..

I was there, I was there, when no one was.

I don't know if you mean this like you where at a place when no one was and you where alone (like in the hotel rooms)  or you mean you where there for me when no one was. Doesn't really matter because both are quite accurate. (Thanks btw for being there, you helped me a lot.. wish we would still talk)

Now you're gone and I'm here. 

Well I am not really gone.. I could sneaky (so no one would see, because damn people are crazy) make my way to you and we could talk and hang out again? But I don't feel like you really want that..

I have questions for you.

Yeah I know I've been answering them..  like if you read the stuff above this..

Number one, tell me who you think you are.

Well I'm not going to tell you who I think I am because that would make the whole anonymous part pointless. Also I like the mystery of this all way too much. But I think you know who I am.

You got some nerve trying to tear my faith apart.

I don't think this line is about me.. I would never do something like that. Because I still really like you.

(I have questions for you)

I know girl, I know.

Number two, why would you try and play me for a fool?

If you mean pranking you and scaring you... that was just funny.. you laught at it too. Other than that I think you are really smart so nope not a fool.

I should have never ever ever trusted you (I have questions).

Well auch.. it hurts me that you would say something like that. I haven't  shared any secret of yours to anyone. Even if sharing it might have made stuff easier. You can trust me.

Number three, why weren't you, who you swore that you would be?

Well I have struggled with that a bit myself..But I think I am okay now. Sucks that I can't tell you  who I am..

I have questions, I got questions haunting me.

I  know and  I hope I have cleared some stuff. And I hope you liked reading my response.

I have questions for you. 

If you have any more questions, you have my email now so send them back to me!

So this was everything I have time for right now, you know busy life and stuff.

Btw good luck on tour. I saw some videos of it on insta. You sound really good!  

(edit: come one please read it.. and answer.. I have send it to you a couple of times now and I put some work in it so please do.. I hope you are not mad at any of the stuff I said, I wanted to be funny and not get all deep and shit..)

-IHA-

*end email*

"Well what the fuck do I do with that..."

-Hey this is my first story.. please tell me if there is something wrong with it.. so I can change it.. I hope you like it.