I Have Answers [CAMREN STORY]

Chapter 6

POV LAUREN                                                       "Sure, I'm in"

I leave my laptop on a hotelroom chair and sit down next to Dinah on the bed. She starts typing.

* Begin text to Camila* 

Hey, I really didn't expect this.. I thought you didnt want to talk to me.. But I'm really happy you do! I really missed you too! So tell me, what's up? X DJ 

*End text to Camila* 

*Send* 

"So Lo what were you "Holy shitting' about?"

"Eeh well I don't really know what to say.. it's just.."

*1 new text* 

POV CAMILA

I was just chilling in my room when I heard my phone. 

*1 new text *

"Holy Shit.. She answered.."

Now I need to write back...How even do I explain this without sounding like a total weirdo..

*Begin text Dinah*

So...Thanks for answering.. and I don't really know how to explain this but I'll just try even tho it will sound really weird.. Some time ago I got an anoymous email, someone saying they have the answers to my I Have Questions.. I had no idea what to do but I eventually got too curious and wrote back..and now idk if that was the good thing to do and Im scared it was just a prank and AAAH sorry for rambling I just really don't know what to do.. XX Mila

*End text Dinah* 

*send* 

POV LAUREN

"yeah? What "it's just.." ?"

"Nah nothing.. it's nothing important, let's just look at what she send."

"Lo you are acting weird.. You know you can tell me anything right?"

"Yeah but no I'm not acting weird, I'm just tired and want to see waht she said so can we get on with it?"

"Sure.."

God.. Sometimes I hate having a friend who looks right through me.. and who knows me so well..

I close my eyes and fall back on the bed. Dinah starts reading the text out loud but I don't really pay attention until she says.. "email..someone..answers..I Have Questions.."

My eyes shoot open and I whisper "shit"

I thought it was quiet enough but Dinah heard

"Huh?"

"Oh eeh yeah I just remembered..This eeh thing..I had to do.. Yeah.. I had to.. Call my mom!"

"Lo again you are being weird af rn"

"Can we talk about this another time? I have to text her now!"

"Call.."

"Huh?"

"Call..You said you needed to call her..but sure, I got the hint. I'll leave.."

I sigh.. Damn I am a bad friend.. I should just tell her.. I should just tell it was me writing that mail..

"Dinah..?"

"yeah?"

Just say it now! Fuck.. Why am I such a fucking pussy.. I can't do it..

"Goodnight"

"Goodnight"

Dinah gets up from my bed and walks out of my room. The door shuts and the lock clicks.. Quiet.. I'm alone.. 

I stare at the ceiling.. Why the fuck do I do stuff like this to myself. I could have just called or text her and say "Hey Camz, I know you left and it was a fucked up time but I still have a fucking huge crush on you.. Like a 'I-am-secretly-a-#1-camren-shipper' big crush.. so what do you think? Wanna hang out sometime? Just as friends is also totally cool ofcourse? I just miss talking to you. "

But nah I had to be all creepy and weird about it, writing her an anonymous email. And now Dinah is going to help her figure out the shit I wrote. And because I was too much of a pussy to say something to Dinah, she thinks I have no idea what it's about.. So know I can't go to Dinah anymore because she will know I lied about having no idea.. But Dinah did notice me acting weird and now I have to think about an explanation for that even tho I hate the whole not being honest to my best friend thing. God I'm a fucking mess..

Thoughts keep racing through my mind until I I get so tired of myself I eventually fall asleep.

When I open my eyes the next day it's already light outside. I wake up still thinking about last night. Then I realise I still haven't read the email properly..

I stretch. Yawn. And get my laptop from the chair.. I start reading the email again. This time with full concentration. 

Fuck she is so cute.. I still am so in love with her.. 

But now what? She wants hints so she knows she can trust me.. and she wants to have someone to talk to.. I am so being friendzoned again.. But I don't even care. 

*Start email*

Hey Camila, 

I promise this isn't anyone pranking you. I just really didn't know how to contact you. Sorry that I picked this weird way. So I read your email and I actually love your pen-pal idea, I also really could use someone to talk to. But I am sorry I can't give any hints about who I am just yet. So I hope you just trust me. Oh and I know this might be a quite weird thing to ask of you but.. You aren't sharing this with anyone right ? Because that could mess this up and I really want to try this pen pal thing with you! So if you still want to.. I'm looking forward to getting the first story!

- IHA -

*End email* 

Maybe I shouldn't put that part in about not sharing.. what if she finds out.. But on the other hand..  This is the only way I can stop Dinah from figuring it out..  

I'll just send it.. I already messed everything up.. how much worse could it get..

*send*