The World We Live In

This World 🌍 Part 1

i was listening to logic's recent song, which is the hotline number to the suicide organization that helps people across the nation. it relates to suicide which is a common reason why people are dying or trying "to not be alive." i spent hours listening to that song and after listening to that song countless times, it starts to hit me because it relates to what im feeling.

the world that we live in is full of jealousy, anger, sadness, and mixed emotions that we can't explain. for every experience that a person goes through is different but the emotions that we feel are the same. we are expected to say cool things, dress cool ... like in we're in some type of photoshoot... and we're expected to be "not socially-awkward." nowadays, people would tease you just because you might be socially awkward or not have the right sense of humor to be cool.

have you ever been in a group conversation where you feel left-out. you suddenly say something... then no one replies at you or someone just dodges the topic that you were talking about. doesn't that make you feel less confident? suddenly, you start to feel like your thoughts don't matter. no one cared for the thing you just said. you question yourself. did i say something wrong? didn't i say something that didn't sound cool at all? uh oh! what if they're irritated with me? finally, you come to conclusion that you're actually... socially awkward which is actually like the worst thing you could be if you're going through a teenage phase.

another thing to address: looksss. ive been on instagram lately. cute pictures. aesthetically pleasing pictures that matches to every single picture on the feed. beautiful flawless people. everything is exactly the same. it makes us human beings to think that perfect is beautiful. i know that there are sayings such as "your flaws make you beautiful" and it's true. but there are some misunderstandings to that phrase. in a society like this, that quote doesn't matter to those who care about looks in general.

imagine a person that worked so hard during one simple activity for work or for school. now imagine, another person that barely worked hard on that activity but managed to still get it done beautifully. as a result, the person that worked effortless got all the attention and the credit more than the one that worked much harder. now that hard working person feels disappointed with a dash of jealousy. that person feels as if he/ or she worked for nothing at all. seems fair huh. no... it doesn't. im trying to make a point that people only focus on the much outside beauty than behind-the-scenes.

at my school, some people focus on those who have nice eyebrows, beautiful silky hair, and the average height. some people focus on the big bottom which we all call it nowadays, "the ass." i have noticed that people that has clear skin... has a much greater advantage of receiving the attention. in your mind you might be relating to what im saying. i can completely understand that. as teenagers, we focus on things like that and it's super unfair. with that, compliments are a way for people to feel self-confident within themselves.

speaking of self-confidence, why don't we talk about what makes you confident? along with that, what are your talents exactly? are you good at singing, dancing, and other creative hobbies? anything that you can do well at and excel counts as your hobby. if you think that sleeping or eating is something that you love, then why don't you count it as your own hobby? if you're a smarty and love mathematics for fun... that can be a talent of yours! no shame!

to add along to this excerpt, let me ask you this. do you like it when people compliment of what you can do? does that make you feel awesome? at that moment, you feel like it's gonna be a great day, when people compliment you. it's like a confirmation to see if your worthy and talented enough.

at my school, people tend to focus on what's entertaining and what's not. it causes an uproar in the social media crowd and the national crowd. back in the early 2000's, going viral was a big deal on YouTube or on any entertainment use. now, going viral and receiving attention to many people is just typical.

don't get me wrong, i really love a good video that can make me laugh for hours. also, i really love a great song that i can replay. but sometimes, when it's just ridiculous video where people are getting hurt or where it's not that funny... it can kinda get irritating. if you went to my school, you'll find it why it sounds irritating. well, raeanna... stop hatin'.

moving on to a different topic: friendships. i know it's such a typical topic to talk about when you're in school. many people go through many friend groups to just see or determine where they belong and i know it.... it's not that fun. don't you ever dream of being the "fun one" in that group or is that just a fantasy in your mind.

back in middle school, i went through two different friend groups. two different stories.
different personalities.

[ STORIES WILL BE REVEALED IN PART 2]