"Zara? Zara! HUY! Are you even listening to me?! My God! Haha..."
I look at Chelsea giving me a back tap. And a pain in the ears.
"...mahirap talaga magmove-on. Magmahal ka kasi ulit para goods! LIKE ME!..." I rolled my eyes. "Oh, sa tingin mo 'di ako magiging ganito kasaya? Dahil kaya 'to sa mga inaanak mo!" She laughed a bit before she look at the---HER baby.
She was carrying her baby kanina pa. Then she sat beside me with her oldest daughter-- who seemed to be on my lap.
"Aww. Kawawa tita Clarisse no? Mahal nya pa si tito--"
"Shh! 'Wag mo ngang ishe-share yan sa mga anak mo. Magiging chismosa yan paglaki."
Tatawa-tawa pa kami.
That's her. The Chelsea I've never knew she would be. The Chelsea who's now a mother of two and a loving wife of Izzy.
Sila nga ang nagkatuluyan. And they're just so...perfect for each other.
'Di nagtagal dumating si Izzy kasama si Cristoff with his...Rachel. They're coming this way. Ibinigay ko ang bata kay Chelsea at tumayo para umalis pero pinaupo ako ni Chelsea.
"Aw. C'mon. Nagpapahalata ka lang. Face him Zara. Malay natin baka may chance na... basta. Just talk to him already." She whispered as I closed my eyes.
I don't want to see him. With her. But as I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was their hands intertwining proudly in love with each other.
"You. We met before, right? You're...you're..." Rachel approached me after having a glance and a smile with Chelsea.
"I'm the Psychiatrist. Nice to meet you again Rachel." Not in mood to smile and socialize, I just shook her hand. I glanced at Cristoff. Facing him. "Hi. I'm Zara." I simply said putting my hand for a shake.
What? I'm hoping if he still know me!
Or hoping to get electrified again with his touch?
"I know. The ZARA I was truly, madly, deeply in loved with back when I was 17."
He responded with a smile playing in his lips.
And shit it hurts like hell. I was okay with the I KNOW.
So cliche but I hate hearing those words from him. Lalo na ang 'back when I was 17.'
Great. Who would be happy?
And so, he moved on. Already. Ako nalang nga ang hindi. Umaasa ka pa rin ba Zara? Isn't everything too much? Isn't everything a little too late for the both of you?
At bakit, Zara? Naging kayo ba?
Did you even told him? Or let him feel he was damn special to you?! That you love him since?!
Tears starting to build up in my eyes--
"Y-yeah." I snap back in reality when Chelsea nudge me. I glance at her, thanking.
Nakipagshakehands na rin ako.
The feeling? He's normally fine and I'm...
I'm not. And I think I'll never be. I won't be.
I'm crawling back in time. Crawling back in time I should have not wasted in the first.
...
"Zara, tama na nga yan. Binyag 'to ng Baby Amanda ko, hindi party, okay?" Kinuha nya ang baso na may wine pa at inilagay sa mesa.
"Sorry Ate." Sabi ko nalang and plan on stopping drinking. Kinuha nya na e.
"Alam mo Zara, Cristoff had felt what you're feeling right now..." Napatingin ako sa kanya. What?
"He's jealous whenever he sees you with Izzy. So much he wished he didn't have him as his brother..." she chuckled, cradling Amanda in her arms. "He even said If he can have the chance to to stop the time with you, dadalhin ka niya sa puso nya. He'll make you watch his heart beat just for you..."
My eyes fell on the other table. Their table. I should be the one to tell him those words. I should be the one he's with in those stares and whispers right now. As if.
I didn't manage to say a word and just let her speak. Dalawa lang naman kami dito sa isang table e. And it's midnight.
"...mahal ka na niya Zara bago pa naging kami. Remember the party that he broke up with me that time? Ikaw pala ang rason ng 'yon Zara. I would have joined you going home if it wasn't. So I totally walked out. Haha..."
I glanced at her, only seeing her drowning back in the past. Happily.
Unlike me...
"He loves you. He takes you for who you are, Zara. One week kaming nawala just to find your Dad..." My eyes suddenly widened in surprise. "It was really a success that we easily located your Dad. Ansaya nya nga nun e. Grabe. Sobra pa sa inapprobahan ng ama para ipakasal sa sariling anak." She glanced at my side and smiled.
"...you'll never want to expect he confessed everything to your Dad." I didn't. I don't know what to feel. He...he done so many things. "The night we arrived, it's your birthday. Seeing you dancing sweetly with Izzy, he got his eyes on fire. Wishing he didn't had a brother like him." A chuckled escaped from her lips.
"...then he stole you from Izzy and bam! You both disappeared..." She sat in front of me, with Amanda, sleeping in her arms.
"Mahal ko siya Ate. Mahal na mahal..." tears started to form in the corner of my eyes. "I was so shitty. So lame. I've wasted my time in hiding the truth behind my lips..." I sob leaning my head in front of the table where I am facing the ground now.
"Alam ko Zara. Pero bakit? You're just a little too late. 'Di kita maintin---"
"Ate Chelsea--" someone interrupted so I keep my head still. "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to..." A familiar voice. "I think I've interrupted something. Babalik nalang ako." He hesitated for a minute.
Before I knew who was that, inunahan na 'ko ni Ate.
"Cristoff, NO." She immediately said. "Aalis naman ako e..." And by that, another tear fell. "I also need to let Amanda in anyway. And, Cristoff?"
I felt both stares creeping in my direction.
"Mind talking to her?"
No. I might say unexpected things to him. No. I might cry missing him.
No. I might never want to let go of him...
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What Breaks My Heart (Slow Down Time 2)
Historia CortaA guy living his life following the girl he loves. A girl that didn't care about what her heart's been telling her all along. He's a stalker, She's innocent. She's the player of her own heart, He's the master of acceptance. They're both bringing a j...
