In A Orange Peeled World

Sunnyside Down

...It was the next day.

In fact, it was like four days later... since...
Well after I ended up in that bloodbath. A couple other peculiar things happened to me.

I was carried by a stream of blood and washed out on the moon. You know that light your supposed to see just before you come out of your mothers womb. Well I saw it.. Again. But only, I was on the moon.

I walked on to the lighter side and when I looked straight forward.. I could see the Earth!

"Damn, that's beautiful!", I whispered in a star struck tone.

It was quiet for another two minuets, until I herd another voice..

"You see all the stars, the galaxy! It's all amazing, isn't it?"

I said back smiling, "Yeah! It's wonderful!"

I didn't know if I was supposed to be scared or amazed by everything happening right now. Everything felt so real.. yet so non-existing.

And out from the shadows.. that voice had its figure.

"Hello.. I'm Lucifer!"

I turned around slowly trying to picture what I just herd... and well, surely enough.. there he was..

..The one and only-

"Lucifer?! Yes. That is I. Me. And you are.."

"I'm no one..", I fastened at!

He walked even closer to me. For some reason I wasn't scared of him. Actually, the closer he came the more at peace he seemed. He was in a all Dark Green suit.
And just as he stood aside from me.. his head was lifted.. gazing upon everything there was to see..

He began to speak after a brief moment..

"Perception. How you look at everything. Nothing is Nothing . And everything is everything. But from nothing you could make everything. And with everything you can end up as nothing."

His hand was out, palm side up. And in it was a replica of the Earth..

I looked at that Earth. And compared them. Back and forth.

The only thing that's different was, ones in his hand. And the other is Floating in nothing. Well space..

"Would you like to see A future?!", Lucifer questioned.

"Uhh.. a future?!"

"Yes. A future. Look closely to my hand."

So I did. Leaning closer to really look at his hand.. the scale of earth started to zoom in on a scale.. then I saw a picture. Myself.. with a family. Lucifer was smiling.. "you're truly are a lucky man. ", he said.

I looked up at him..
"Hey... Lucifer? Why is there pain?!"

I couldn't help to cry. But he was confused on why I was also...

"Everyone needs a family!" I cried.

"Lucifer, you don't have to be lonely on the moon anymore! Come with me!"

Lucifer smiled and said... "We All are destine for something, from nothing. Pain is different for all of us... human or Nonhuman."

I wasn't understanding.. but then I felt a pressure on my forehead. It was his finger. Then as he relieved.. it began to glow!

"Farewell my friend.. until we meet again?"

Those were the last words I herd from Lucifer..

That all had to be a dream. Waking up being drenched by water from my sister. I walked into the bathroom taking off my shirt. I leaned over the sink.. and looked forward. At myself...
"Who am I?", I thought.

Just after I was finished with the bathroom. I walked out and into the living room. And I looked outside.. it was raining. But where was the sound?

"I got to stop doing drugs.", I said as I was popping a pill.

The pills were for my hallucinations and illusions. Plus I had a bit of a temper from being depressed and not noticed. I have problems.. issues. I set the pills back on the counter next to the radio playing Pyramids by Frank Ocean. And I sat at the kitchen bar.

My head was throbbing.. I couldn't stop thinking about her. The one. My true Love..

The sound of the rain was catching up.. and I began to feel a breeze on my back. I turn around and half of the building was gone.. I was on a cliff! separated into two different environments. The side with the house was raining. And the other side was on a cliff... clouds were evened to the ground. But they weren't moving.. I don't know what gave me this thought.. but I wanted to walk on them. So with a little hesitation.. I slowly forced my self on then... and.... they held me!

My stillness began to change.. I felt a change.. a change in my heart, my soul.. my mind.

Walking turned to a light jog, then a run, then a sprint.. and just before I reached the end of the clouds, running! My last foot launched off.. and... I was flying!

I flew over the world. I was never going to land.. time was.. the Time was... timeless! There was no time.. it was just me and the Sky!

All of the colors were so pretty.

I look down to find a body of water. It was a ocean. I flew down closer seeing my reflection on the water... then I started to fall.

Skipping as if I was a tossed flat stone.. I ended up on a shore in the sand. Rolling in, Faced upward to the sky. I started laughing. Crying. Laugh
Crying.
... it was a love hate relationship being alone. But I enjoyed it...
...life...

My thoughts went back to Lucifer saying, "human and non humans".

I really pondered that.. still flustered.

"I HATE being human... " , I thought.

Then my lips began to move...
"I'm not human."

"I'm Not Human."

"IM NOT HUMAN!".. I was shouting at the world by then.

...And it said back... "it's okay."

I herd it loud and clear. Eyes wide open. I watched how the sun settled into the water off the horizon. And the night has just begun. Stars where starting to come out. And in the stars.. her face. I saw her... face. She was, Everything to me... and I was No One to her..

..But us together felt like home.

I reached up my hand and grabbed the air. I'll never let go of you... "i promise".

Even though I was making promises to myself.. it still felt like she knew I was keeping them for her.
But why... why was I so wrapped up in this imaginary, oppressed feeling.

I was so close to feeling it... love.

My hand still in the air open. The sand I was laying on, began to feel alive. And what happened next, it began to swallow me. I could feel it pulling me under. The darkness consuming me while I was still reaching out to the sky...

"Is This is how I die.. ", I thought.

Reaching for the stars while being eaten by a beach..

What was left... quietness. Stillness. A calmed scene. From what was chaos then to freedom.