*Flashback* "Y/N, just shoot me please", she said.
*Why...? You're fine*, I said not looking in her eyes seeing we both have tears streaming down our faces.
"No... no I'm not. Didn't you just see what happened i got bit don't you see-... ", she said while showing the mark. Me cutting her off, Making eye contact with her.
" No no no, you're not leaving me here alone in, this...", looking around my bedroom before looking back at her in the eyes. "Don't you remember what we both agreed on, what you said... What happens to you two... You can't.." I cried looking away.
"FUCK!!" I cried out standing up. "Why now huh!?! What kind of bullshit did i do for my life to end up like this", dropping back on my knees gripping onto my hair. "I i... I didn't do anything, I've been a good boyfriend. I treated you like a queen, which you are, I did everything and then that happened" , I gestured to her stomach then dropping my hands down taking a deep breath before reaching out to touch her tummy with a small bump looking into her blue eyes.
"I-i was hoping that I'd be able to get know my baby. I actually want to be a better father than mine. Please, you guys can't just leave. You are all I have left, if you guys are going, I want to go too".
"Y/N...". She said cupping my cheeks, wiping off the tears softly with her thumb. "Look at me". She pleaded.
Meeting her gaze, leaning into her touch. "Look, I know this hard for you, trust me when I say I'm fucking scared, I am. Not able to wake up to you in the morning or seeing you when coming back home. I'm scared that I won't be able to see our baby grow healthy. Taking her to her first class at kindergarten, dressing her up everyday, and watching us grow together as a family. But seeing that it can't happen now, I'm sorry y/n". She said with tears running down her face, I quickly wiped it, kissing her lips.
Looking down from her gaze down at the ground. " So who's going to be their when i'm going through depression. Who's going to be their when i'm having anxiety attacks. I don't think it makes any sense to continue living if you guys aren't here, I'll just be miserable. Both of you are the only ones I care about -". I said but was cut off. "Camila and Dinah?". She quickly reminding me of my younger Latina and Tonga best friends . We've been best friends from as long as I can remember since diapers. Our parents had a strong relationship, taking me as if I was their own. I love and miss all of them.
I giggled looking up seeing her cupping both her mouth and nose, it's something we both have in common. As she slowly opening her familiar gorgeous brown eyes, her smile turning into a frown. "what?". She asked not understanding my intense stare. "God you're so beautiful ". I blurted out without realising, her cheeks turning red from the blush. "what did i say?". I asked blinking getting confused. " You said I am beautiful". She whispered blushing even more. "Ooh...um well yeah you are, it's all facts babe. You're the most exquisite creature I've ever met". I told her grinning from ear to ear showing my dimples. She gently pushed me while giggling with the still blushed cheeks. After a moments of silence of staring at each other, feeling the atmosphere changing. "Y/N you have to let me go now...". She said, as I continued looking into her eyes.
She sighed looking down on the necklace I bought for her 18th birthday 2 years ago with the sun and moon with both our names engraved on either sides. Her name on the sun, and my own on the moon. She carefully took it off and put it around my neck, giving it to me?. "What are you doing?'. I asked confused. "What does it looks like i'm doing" She shot back, I shrugged looking down at the necklace twirling it around my fingers. "I'm giving it to you". She responded matter of fact. Snapping my head up fast to look at her in surprised. "Why?". I asked. "So you don't forget me" she stated obvious, her voice cracking. I took her face into my palms bringing her face close to mine. "I wouldn't even dare". I voiced pain and hurt.
"So is there anything else i can get other than the necklace?". I shyly asked. She smiled at me pecking my lips, she then turned around to reach her drawer to get a home made album?. "What's that?". I asked not knowing what it is. "It's a home made album". She said showing it to me. "See...one of the first pictures we took together when we met at senior year 2015 three years ago". She finished explaining. "Wow...this is so beautiful and creative". I paused just realising something. "No wonder why you would take long to call me and you stopped me from going into that specific drawer, fuck your good at hiding things". I said surprised.
"You're mean". I said pouting, seeing confusion across her face, I then explained. "I thought something bad happened to you, to why you couldn't call me and anxiety started kicked in, I was worried about you". I said playing with her fingers looking down. "But then in the morning you would always text me *Good Morning Babe, hope you slept well, I love you*. I paused again looking to meet her gaze, In her dark pools of brown eyes it's filled with sadness and regret. Squeezing her hand in mine softly to ease her concerns. "I could never beat your morning text though, I'm always coming up with cheesy text". I finished with a smile on my face. "I love you". I said with tears rolling down my cheeks for the hundredth time. "I love you so much". I wiped off my tares hoping for it to stop. " And I love you. I love you more than you'll ever know". She replied with tear stained cheeks and puffy eyes .
"Can I at least get a last kiss". I asked shyly. She giggled looking up at me. "Why are you so shy with me y/n?, even though it's cute, it fits you". She said. Pouting looking at her. "I'm not cute i'm sexy". I retort grinning , she letting out a belly laugh, boy i'm going miss her and her laugh. " You're cute". She shot back at me.
I brought both my hands to cup both cheeks and her neck back, drawing her closer to my face slowly as our gaze are both connected. As her lips hovered over mine touching it softly, with adrenaline rush surging through my body quickly molding our lips together in a passionate and loving kiss. I'm not going to see her again, might as well give her the best kiss she's ever had before. My tongue brushed her bottom lip asking for entrance, she granted my access as our tongue battle for dominance, I won of course. As our tongue moving in sync, as i pull on her hair slightly pulling her back my teeth trapped her bottom lip, I slowly moved back and sucking on the area. I heard her moan loudly, fuck i'm going to miss that sound. Feeling my sweats getting tighter by the second, why am I getting hard in serious situation. I moaned as she sucked back on my bottom lip, pulling away due to the need of air. Gently resting our foreheads together with my eyes closed. I brought her in a bone crushing hug, as I opened my eyes looking down at pistol on the floor, I took it up with a shaky hand as I started to cry. "Baby hold on me tight and close your eyes please". I told her, not questioning anything than having a tight grip on me, I'm guessing she had her eyes closed too. I brought it to point to the back of her head, scared to pull the trigger. We both heard noise coming from down stairs, my heart started beating rapidly, and her breathing being uneven. " Y/N just do it please...Goodbye y/n". She said breaking the silence. I suddenly pulled it, as I heard her last breath, slowly her grip on me loosened. I got up and walked over to her bed laying her down, looking her over making sure everything was okay. I kissed all over her face including her lips, I moved her hair out of her face with a small smile, and caressing her cheek with my thumb. "Goodbye...Vero". I replied.
