unwavering feelings | panwink

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I sighed when I woke up, the first thing that I'm doing early in the morning is staring at the ceiling of my room, but what a disgusting premonition I can smell how I stink for not having a bath/shower last night and just go to sleep, shame on me, shame on me. (It sounds shape of me lol

The events yesterday was such an uproar, Guanlin being my co-part timer at the Cafe, Guanlin take me home and Guanlin being in a rumor which the rumor is about him getting a perfect girlfriend who came from in an elite school, well great then I won't assume that I can have a chance to him from now on because he's in a relationship, and it's amazing how this kid is experiencing his first official heartbreak, won't someone plan a party for me?

For a fee minutes I stayed like that, watching the blank ceiling continuously like there's no tomorrow while reminiscing all the scenery last day, until my inner instinct has gotten into me to get up to wash my face and brush my teeth.

Self hygiene is more better that first heartbreak but food is way more better than all of this. (deonie 2017)

After I freshened up myself I cooked to satisfy my grumbling stomach craving for food like it's been decades since I last ate. Since my shift is on the afternoon I thought I need some fresh air.

To think all of this through, about stuffs like college, what course should I get, or maybe how to come out as "Gay" to my parents, oh and Lai Guanlin. I sighed again remembering that person's name, I don't want to see him though that's impossible because I will see him later.

I'm in front of my apartment now, thinking where to go, I fished my phone in my pants pocket planning to text Woojin my greatest best friend but all we do is bickering well whatever, I clicked our message and starting to type a message for him.

Me:
Yah

Wake up dipshit

Wake up

Wake up

Wake up

As I continuously spammed my best friend.

Great dark past:

WHAT?! R U GONNA BE A HINDRANCE TO MY BEAUTY SLEEP?

Me:
When did you become beautiful? Doesn't suits ya.

Great dark past:
Bitch since I was born.

Me:
Yeah, Goodluck liking Sungwoon Hyung

Great dark past:
That came out from nowhere, bruh.

Me:
I'm 19, u fite me?

Great dark past:
sTAPH SAYING THAT LIKE, PARK JIHOON!

SO WHAT DO YOU WANT? Why did u text me, huh?

Me:
Let's go to the park.

Comfort.

Great dark past:
ahhhhh, u heartbroken from the rumor?

I gatcha boi

Me:
Be quick u pig

Great dark past:
Bitch ure the pig.

I left him seened and started to walk in the direction where the park is, it wasn't sunny it yet it wasn't cloudy too, what is this bipolar sunshine (You know Bipolar Sunshine? I LOVE HIS SONGS)

I closed my eyes to feel the cool breeze, making the every seconds of this moments last long, it's rare and I should let it get into me. I started walking again when I finished what I am doing, and now I'm here in the park, I saw Woojin in their, I think he run to get here fast. He's a good friend.

I approached him and we sat on one of the bench here in the park.

"Yah, you like him for such a long time Jihoon." He wasn't looking to me but just staring at the ground.

"I know bitch, but what can I do he's freaking straight as a metal." I said while putting my both hands in my both sides.

"Metal can be bend too you know?" He jokingly said. Damn this shit knows how to make shitty comebacks.

"Whatever Woojin, just whatever."

"Well you know, I think it's the sign to move on from him, No matter what you do bro I think he'll never see you in his eyes." Woojin is right, I should move-on and get things started again, maybe for the better.

I nodded into him but suddenly my tears fall through my warm cheeks, I softly wiped it with my two hands, I felt Woojin's hand circling in my back to simply comfort me, I was thankful for Woojin being a considerate friend, he understands me and supports me in everywhere, he's my best friend afterall.

It lasted minutes before I calmed down, now my eyes are puffy and swollen, god dammit I should do this not here in public places, I feel that I looked like I'm taking drugs ahahah.

Me and Woojin talked for so long and we bid goodbye because I need to get ready for my shift this afternoon, I guess crying makes me feel a little better than before.

I don't want to meet Guanlin rights now, just not now.

The first time that I cried, about someone that I love that doesn't loves me back.

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This chapter was supposed to be a long chap, but seriously I need to do shit requirements folks, I'll try in the next chapter okay? It will be the continuation.

Though I'm excited in the scenes when they will be at their school. I'm not fine.
But Panwink feed us so well, no more drama okay? Ahahaha

deonie🚬