The Hospital Life- Ereri

Chapter 9

Eren's P.o.v

I sat on my bed with my knees in my chest, regretting the last few decisions I've made. Rivaille will never come back after that, what normal person would.

At this point I just don't care anymore...I don't care if I'm alive or dead...what is there is life if I'm in this state?
I swung my legs over my bed and stood up slowly. I grabbed my IV stand and made my way out of my room. The hallway was dark as I peered down it to the elevator. It was clear. I made my way down the hall and tried to find a supply cupboard.

After wondering about for about ten minutes, I finally found a small cupboard. I looked around and found a bottle of sleeping pills. They will do just fine. I pocketed the bottle and made my way back to my room. As I closed the cupboard down-

"Oh Eren what are you doing out of bed?" Hanji jumped.

"Oh em I couldn't sleep so I thought I'd take a walk.." I laughed nervously. She looked me up and down and crossed her arms.
"Are you okay? You haven't been yourself in a few days"

"O-oh don't worry about me- I'm fine honestly' I clinched on to the bottle of pills inside my pocket.

"Are you sure? Do you want to talk about anything-"

"NO!" I snapped, "eh-I'm sorry...don't worry I'm fine, I'm gonna go to bed now.." I walked past her.

"Okay if you say so.." she said quietly..as she watched me walk away.

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I got back into my room and closed the door. I sat back on the edge my bed and took out the pills. I took a deep breath and exhausted loudly. My eyes began to water as I opened up the bottle cap.

Just thing I knew my door opened. I quickly shoved the bottle under my pillow. I looked around and there was Rivaille. "R-ivaille what are you doing here?" I gasped as a whipped my tears.

"Have you been crying?" He asked as he dumped his bag on the floor, he slowly came closer and placed his hand on my face.

"No I'm fine honestly, why are you back I thought you left?" I put my hand on top of his.

" I felt like an complete fucking Eren for the way I left you- it was completely unacceptable and a fucking big mistake! I overreacted and I wasn't thinking about how it was effecting you" he sat down on my pillow.

"No I'm sorry I didn't realise- after the lies I told you and I didn't fight enough for you to stay-"

"It's okay now. I'm back- and I'm sitting in something hard" he stood up and lifted up the pillow.

"No there's nothing there-"

He looked down and saw the bottle. "Sleeping pills? Eren why do you have these?" He picked them up.

"Oh em I've been having trouble sleeping lately...there just to help me...haha.." I laughed nervously.

"Then why are you hiding them under your pillow?" He raised his eyebrows and looked concerned. Then the looked of realisation spread across his face as he looked at the bottle. "Eren!" He gasped.

"No- no it's not what it looks like!" I snatched the bottle away from him.

"Is this what you were crying about when I walked in? Were you about to take all these?" He turned around and started passing. "Why this because of me- did I push you to this?"

I got up from the bed. "No! No of course not! Your completely wrong!"

"What would of happened if I hadn't walked in here at that moment? Would you have taken them!?" Rivaille put both his hands on my shoulders and looked into my eyes. "Eren...were you trying to kill yourself...?" He asked very worriedly. I looked deeper into his eyes and I let myself go. I began to crying hysterically into his arms. He let out s sigh of relief and wrapped his arms around me. "It's okay...I'm here.." he whispered as he hugged me tighter. "Let it all out you brat.."