The Master// Vkook + Jikook Part 1

Chapter 7 Just close your eyes

As I walk through the door of my now empty apartment. I notice that all of Taehyungs belongings are gone. His belongings like that little picture of us that sat by the fireplace. His coconut scented body wash that I loved so much, and the soft cotton sheets that we would lay in every morning when he would trace hearts on my chest.

My heart dropped to the floor as I knew that he wouldn't love me anymore after he wakes up. What I did was wrong, selfish and cruel. I guess this is just the members way of keeping him safe. I don't blame them, I really am a monster. I tried to kill the one I love most in the world. It should be me who's in a coma not him.

Filled with rage and sadness I walk over to the kitchen and grab a knife from the knife block and stair at the reflection of me in the blade. A tear tickles my cheek before it falls into the end of the blade.

I take the knife to the room that Tae and I would write lyrics. I place it softly on the top left edge of the desk and sit on the cold tile floor, grabbing the pen that he always loses used and the last piece of paper that we have and start writing.

Dear, Tae
You will never know how sorry I am and I know that you will never forgive me for my sin.
My heart is hurting because we never got to say goodbye. My mind is so filled with voices telling me that I don't deserve to live. And I am choosing to believe them because a world without you loving me is no work that I want to live in. Just know that I love you and you are better off without me. I never deserved to even know you let alone love you. But thank you for letting me love you.
I'm sorry for this.
I will always love you, even in hell.
                  -JK

I fold up the letter and place it so that it is weaved between the guitar strings and grab the knife off of the desk and let my tears flow down my face as I turn the blade towards my chest.I take a deep breath and whisper the words "I'm sorry!"