When It's Right, It's Right

Chapter 5

It's a longer one but we're finally getting somewhere. I just wanted to say a big thank you to everyone reading, I see all of you adding this to your reading lists and it makes me so happy! I hope you all like where I'm taking this story. Enjoy!

I was surprised that Finn hadn’t put two and two together yet. I took a few breaths to compose myself before speaking “Umm Finn, see the thing is, that well…” I stuttered trying to find the right words. Sensing my nervousness Finn looked at me “ Love, what is it, what are you trying to say?” he asked cautiously.

I reached over and took a long drink of Finn’s spiked coffee “It’s a little more complicated than having all the working parts...” I trailed off, and then before I could stop myself the words poured out of my mouth, barely coherent and at lightning speed.  “IMAVIRGIN! Finn that’s why, and Logan doesn’t know, and I know if I tell him he won’t understand, and he definitely won’t stick around to be someone’s ‘cherry popper’!  He’s got a million girls on standby, he doesn’t need me.  I just have so much fun being around him, and he makes me feel good, like no one else before, and I don’t want that to end!”  

And exhale…

I was wringing my hands, waiting for Finn to say something, to laugh at me, to make some snide comment laced with an innuendo, but he didn’t.

He took a deep breath and let it out like he was in some yoga instruction video.  I was looking at the ground, but I could feel Finn’s eyes boring a hole into my skull.  When I was finally brave enough to look up at him, he had what can only be described as a compassionate smile on his face.

He leaned over and placed his hands on my shoulder, and then pulled me into a tight hug.  He pushed a strand of hair behind my ear and whispered: “It’ll be ok, Love.”

I pulled back, searching his face for more details; more answers.  I shook my head. “No, it won’t” I looked up to his eyes.  “I need to break it off with him, don’t I?  He’s never going to stick around if I tell him, will he?” I questioned shakily.

Finn looked at me sadly.  “Here’s the thing, Love; I don’t want to agree with you but you need to know something about our dear friend Logan. When we were in high school he was much less cynical and jaded than he is now and he in fact could care less if it was a girl’s first time or not. He was always a gentleman and he’s never led a girl on to think that it was more than what it was and if it was 3 years ago I’d be telling you to go on and tell him and there wouldn’t be a problem. But our senior year of high school he met this girl Lacey she was sweet and kind of naive and she thought that Logan being her first meant that they were bonded together forever.

The next day she texted him upwards of 20 times, asking when she would see him again and why had he run out so quickly afterwards. He just avoided her messages and went about his day until that night when he came back to his room and found her waiting outside the boys dormitory and she demanded that he speak to her. He tried to explain that he was sorry she misunderstood his intentions but on no uncertain terms was he looking for a girlfriend. And he just walked away leaving her on the steps. He thought that was the last he would see of her but the next day she turned up at his favorite coffee shop and when he went to the counter to order she jumped in and ordered for him; exactly what he would normally order...it freaked him out and he high tailed it out of there.

Then a few days later we had a long weekend so Logan, myself, Colin and a few others went to Martha’s vineyard for a few days. No one knew we were going but somehow Lacey ends up staying at a “friend’s” place just next door. To this day we still don’t know how she managed that.

Anyway to make a long story short , that was the last time Logan slept with a first-timer. He avoids clingers at all costs now. Now I’m not saying you’re the clingy type but it tends to go with the territory.”