Am I Worth It?

Chapter 2

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Hey world,

Nothing special really happened to me so far, except for almost falling on my face this morning. Thank the Lord some guy caught me by my arms and held me up like I was baby Jesus. I should start popping caffeine pills instead of double-fisting Starbucks... 'cause that stuff does not keep me awake.

Okay... so on a more important note, I stepped on the scale this morning and I saw that I weighed and entire pound heavier than yesterday. My mind instantly went into overdrive and I started thinking of all the possible ways I could combat this weight gain. I haven't purged but I did take a few laxatives and run several miles this morning. Hopefully some weight will come off by tomorrow morning. My stomach has also been acting up from the laxatives so I think I'll just drink water and eat some fruit for the day.

Logging off,
Ms. Nobody

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I close my laptop with a sigh and glance longingly at the skinny jeans I've been dying to wear hanging in my open closet. I buy so many clothes, yet I only wear things that are baggy and cover my body shape.

I glance at the alarm clock, which has 7:00 AM radiated across its black screen in bright red. Tired from my morning cardio, I drag myself out out of my desk chair and hurriedly pull on a distressed hoodie with a pair of black leggings and grey over the knee boots to match.

I avoid the mirror today. I know how I look; the hoodie covers my body in every way I want to. It's baggy enough to hide the bumps and curves on my body, but not enough to make it seem like I'm wearing a rice sack.

I run my fingers through my hair deciding there is not enough time to make it look any better. I top off the look with some light makeup.

After 15 minutes I'm finally able to speed off to school. I park better than yesterday, all the while managing to not scrape my car. Instead, I'm sandwiched in between two cars: a grey BMW SUV, and a navy Audi convertible. The person that steps out of the BMW catches my eye and I feel the blood slowly rush to my cheeks in embarrassment. He was the one that caught me yesterday, just in time before my face would've made a crash landing.

A guy steps out from the Audi. He's a tall lanky Asian guy with a big smile. He glances at me for a second before greeting the cute BMW owner, whose eyes are glued to my face.

"Yo T, what's up with you?" Tall lanky guy asks him.

T. He finally turns away to talk to his friend. Looking away, I bite my bottom lip and begin walking in the other direction, towards the familiar blocky grey and white building.

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First class of the day is always so boring. You're tired, it's not even nine AM yet, and you yawn every ten seconds even though you woke up two hours ago. That's how it is for me, at least.

I'm sitting in Calculus drawing halfheartedly on a worksheet when I finally hear the darn bell.

RIINNNGGG!!!!

The shrill chiming jolts me from my daze and I quickly start gathering my things, shoving them carelessly into my backpack.

I scoot out of my chair and brush past another student as I leave.

"Excuse me," I mumble.

"Oh hey, it's you." My eyes shift upwards and there's T, warm brown eyes and light olive complexion staring right back at me.

"Hey T." T? It rolls off my tongue before I could stop it. Shit.

His brows furrow a bit as he tries to figure out how I know him. His eyes widen when realization hits him. "Ah I kind of saved you yesterday, on the stairs right?" He laughs awkwardly, running his fingers through his dense hair. "I'm Tucker. But you can call me T if you want. And you're.." He waits for me to answer his question.

"Rose. I'm Rose." I bite my lip and look at him shyly. "Listen, sorry about yesterday--"

"No, no need to be sorry. I'll see you around?" His almond eyes peer into mine expectantly.

"Yeah, for sure. I'll see you around." I flash him a quick, tiny smile and scurry out of the classroom.