Sugar-Coated || C.H.

XV

COREY HAIM

Everyday I hesitated to visit her because I was afraid; afraid of the fact that I've caused her pain. I felt restless. Ever since I was dragged out of the hospital, I've had many sleepless nights.

This is all my fault.

That's right! Blame yourself. You caused this to happen.

If that's the case then.. It's only right I go visit her right?

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My palm's sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy (a/n: geddit guys). My guts was in knots; I was nervous. So many different scenes played in my head as I walked towards the hospital. How will she treat me?

I can't back out now, can I?

"Hi," I approached the receptionist, "May I know where Nicole Dillon's room is at?"

"Room 156, to your left."

"Thank you."

I made my way immediately to her room. I read the names on the list outside of the room to double check.

"Nicole.. Nicole.. Ah here it is! Bed 26."

Okay so let's pretend my emotions are vegetables. It's all now in a bowl and have become a salad. As its dressing is nervousness, delicious!

I entered the room slowly, looking left and right finding for Nicole. She was all the way at the end. She looked out the window and my reflection was seen when I stopped halfway to her bed. She gasped and looked at me.

"H-hey," I said.

She pulled her cover over her head trying to avoid me. I went over to her side and pulled the cover down.

"Nicole, please.. Look at me."

She turned away from me.

"Why do I have to? I've never taken my eyes off you but your eyes seem to wander everywhere."

I sighed knowing that that may be a fact. I've never put her first. Regret is all I'm feeling right now.

"Okay, you don't have to look at me. I deserve this, I do. I'm an asshole that doesn't know how to treat a lady right. I regret doing you wrong because you mean the world to me. I was too caught up with my 'arranged marriage' and work that you slipped off my mind," I tried to reason.

"Wow. Harsh Haim. I don't know if you're here to make me feel better or worse about myself because you know what? Your stupid speech made me feel worse about myself. It made me reflect on the amount of times I gave you chances. And "you slipped off my mind" shows that I'm just not important to you."

"I was stressed. I wanted to settle everything then be with you peacefully."

I took her hand in mine but she pulled it away. My heart shattered. I clenched my fist and bit my quivering lips.

"What am I? dead? Wake up we're not Romeo and Juliet," she snapped.

"Please give me a chance.. We'll work it out I promise."

"Get out.."

"But-"

"Get the fuck out, Corey Haim! I never want to see your face again," she exclaimed.

Her words, like arrows, were aimed straight to my heart. I choked on my words, totally stunned. My brain was still processing whatever she just said. It was unbelievable.

"Didn't you hear me? Please leave before I call security," Nicole warned me.

I put my hands up in surrender and walked backwards slowly then turning around to open the door. I couldn't get myself to turn the door knob.

"You sure about this?" I questioned her. "Once I exit this door," I sniffled. " 'Us' no longer exists. You don't know me, I don't know you. If we cross paths, we'll walk past one another without saying a word. We'll just be left with memories of each other. We'll be strangers again; strangers with memories. Is that what you want?"

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a/n:

im just gonna leave it at that
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