So first, hello to all of the new readers. I do see and really appreciate the comments I see about how you found this book and the girlfriend congrats, amount others.
Before I get to the main part I wanted to ask what sort of things would you be interested in knowing about with me? What types of things would you be interested in, personal or more just explanatory. I can do stuff about coming out to friends and teachers, just plain story times about interesting moments that have happened, or just more about my normal life, like how I somehow succeed doing extra curricular activities and Ap courses for instance. Pretty much anything but I just need opinions so I know where to start. Thanks!
Now onto the real meat; my girlfriend and I have been going strong for the past 7 months now. We hit that mark Tuesday and I think we will be continue for a good while. We survived the summer break and part of the heavy band season so we should be able to really get through anything now.
Now the biggest thing that has hindered my previous relationships is that I feel little to no want or need to kiss my partner or be kissed by them, and ever one of my partners has pretty much broken up with me because of that point so I was and still am cautious about that point. I'm not really sure why this is, but it's something I quickly noticed and wasn't just because my first partner was bad at kissing or something. And as of today, we have not kissed and she has openly told me that she is fine with that. Her main things that she has put in our relationship are cuddling at her home(we aren't out to my parents yet)/her sitting on my lap before school and during lunch cause I'm a 'giant' in her words and she fits nicely on my lap and then hugging before we leave each other and walking each other to our first periods.
We both enjoy the little things like the things above and then holding hands. We have gotten the whole parade of questions about kissing like have you guys kissed, how was the first kiss, how is the other at kissing, etc. And we really tend to just not really comment on them. We'll say we haven't kissed when we are together and they'll drop it but then once they have one of us alone they'll try to find out more reasons which is hard to explain. But I have her support and she figures out something to say when I'm not around that gives them enough information to be quiet.
The other interesting things with our relationship are that in her friends group I am pretty much know as her wife and I'm somehow responsible for her actions when she goes on rants and things that don't make sense but will make us laugh or attacks the dogs in the vet classroom we eat lunch in.
Then other thing is that both of us have pretty severe anxiety and we have learned that the matching necklaces(we both have half a heart, her's is silver where mine is black and they have magnets that will attach them if they are close enough) we got are good things to play with to calm down when we don't have each other. There is one long side that I run my finger down a lot as it's smooth and I can time my breathing to that and she takes it off and twists it around within a fist that helps calm the shaky hands her attacks can give her.Yeah, that's the update. Still pretty small but I'm getting there. Feedback on my question would be great and I do truly appreciate all of you who take the time to read about my life.
As always,
Taylor
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Confessions of a panromantic/asexual/anxiety ridden human being
Non-FictionThis is just a book of confessions about my sexuality, stories about how I realized my sexuality, and rants. Really just something for me to let of steam and get feedback from others. I want this to spark a conversation with me and you instead of i...