Confessions of a panromantic/asexual/anxiety ridden human being

Welcome Back

Hello y'all!

I feel like I come back to this story every two years just to sort of check-in because I'm not used to talking about myself. With 2020 being how it is, and I know at least in my situation I have been left at home with nothing to do and really haven't seen much of the outside world so I thought I'd come back to this narrative and try and flesh it out a bit more.

I started this 'confessions' book back when I was like 14 and jeez does it sound like that. I'm turning 19 next month and I want to make this book more professional while I'll still give confessions and talk about my life I really would love to give just as much advice and make this a positive place. I know that's what I needed when I started this book and I want to be able to give that to any new queer individuals, young or old, who want their sexuality and/or gender to be validated.

I also would love to start giving out references to other queer individuals and possibly even talking about LGBTQIA+ centered books, both on here and ones that are published. If anyone has suggestions or wants this, let me know!

And I guess I should probably also reintroduce myself as I've definitely grown as a person since I first did this and even since the last update.

So Hello again!

My name is Taylor. I am turning 19 on the 20th of October and I'm in technically my first year of college but I'm also going to have an AA by the end of Spring so that's something. I'm currently studying American Sign Language Interpreting, which is so interesting and fun at the moment. I can definitely talk about any level of school and navigating coming out/ being stealth/ managing bullies if anyone wants that. As well as college applications depending on where you're at.

I was very lucky that the sexuality labels I found and learned when I was very young definitely still fit. I sometimes use the term demisexual now but honestly, I do think I'm still ace cause I've been through three different relationships now, the original girlfriend is probably my closest best friend now. The relationship ended peacefully but we decided we wanted different things, which is fine. I had a mini relationship for about three months, but I am currently over a year into my third relationship with an individual I will only even describe as 'the boy'(literally what I call him to his face and to our mutual friends. He's fine with it), and I still haven't found a need for physical interaction, in order for the relationship to be valid. This is something I will probably flesh out later, but peer pressure definitely feels like it's bubbling up with this relationship so there may be more of an update soon on that last part.

My gender is something that has changed significantly in the past couple of years. I now completely identify as trans nonbinary and use they/them pronouns. I like that my 14 year old self knew something was up since I did title this 'human being' and if anyone wants me to focus on that, again I'm game. I definitely lean more masculine at least at this moment; to the point of I regularly bind and am looking into hormones. (Big developments, I know.)

I have fallen even more in love with theater. To the point of actually auditioning and being cast in a show that is currently in rehearsals. This experience is something I will definitely touch on later but it is so nice being in a room with other creative types. I'm playing two different masc characters and nobody has bat an eye at that which is so nice.

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So I think I'll end this here and maybe I'll start thinking about updating this regularly for a change. I'm home all the time except for when I'm at rehearsals, so I definitely got the time. Expect late night updates, at least for the east coast, because I'm a total night out.

But yeah, if anyone wants to learn specific things or know more about me, please feel free to comment them! I promise you I've read and seen all of your comments and votes since the last time I updated and I thank you all for being supported and I'm happy that I've been a resource you've turned to for this topic!