I'm weak,thoughts are killing me

Happiness?

But out of no where he came and woke me up and told me that tonight is the last time I would see him.I was happy because I wouldn't be sad I guess or cut.But he said to watch out because he's gonna come back in a few months.He said goodbye and I told him I'm going to miss you sarcastically.He turn around and laughed.Then i felt
right back to sleep.After that day everything felt normal I guess but I had to where long sleeve.I was actually happy enjoying life.Going to theme parks/parties.I even started to have a crush on this boy in my 6th period his name was..you know let's just call him Garret.I was so happy.All I felt was happiness.Getting butterflies when I saw  Garret.Just living life normally.A couple months pass by it was like 2 am trying to finish some homework.Then I heard someone knock i already knew who it was already.I told him please no I've been so happy lately.He came in and said well guess what I have brought company.I knew this time I wouldn't survived...